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Welllll....... I have a lot to say but I'm impatient at how long it's going to take to write it all... i think i'll just do .. ahhh, nevermind, i'll just write =)
The new apartment.... BAD ASS! haha. i have stayed there two nights now and i love it..... i know that most people, especially my female friends, HATE living by themself... but i love it! i love not having to worry about anyone else beign there or getting in my way or just whatever. I"m so glad it worked out. ANd i know that for awile i was really upset about not styaing in Corpus but now i think it's a good thing, probably the best thing actually. From what I understand everyone is doing drugs, and i'm sure that they will party even more this year, and it's not a very good school academically anyway... so i think this is for the best. PLUS the fact that i'm going to a UT school will help me get all the classes i need to transfer to UTA.
Everyone has pretty much gone back to school already. But it's really not that bad, because i didn't talk to very many people, and the ones i did that left i didn't talk to most of them on a consistant basis, so it's all good. I just kick it with Travis, Julie, Blaine, and sometimes Roland and Roger.
Speaking of ROger... things are good with us. I think that we are both finally okay with being friends only, and we are both moving on. It's still nice to talk to him, because he knows me better than anyone, and he knows where I'm coming from, and since Bryan and Hol are gone, it's kinda nice. He said something when we were talking about brandon and he was like tell him he has a good girl and i was like wow, thanks rog. We usually talk once a week, sometimes we don't.. but that's okay too. I like where we are at. It means a lot to me that we are able to stay friends.
SO BRANDON is the best EVER and i am very happy with him.. even if we are having to do some crazy long distance shit. We talk everyday, atleast a few times, and i think that our situation is so much better than the situation i had with roger. I mean, somedays we barely even get to talk, but we still squeeze in a few minutes when we're driving to and from places, or on our lunch breaks or whenever we can fit in few minutes. As long as that keeps up, there is no reason it shouldn't work out... but i know brandon, and i don't think that anything is going to change... and like blaine said, i really could see it working out for us, just because of the type of people we are.
We have talked about a lot of different aspects of our relationship, from our ex's, to what we want, to what it's going to take to make things work, to the situation with him going to iraq. Last night he brought up the one thing that i am uneasy about.... about him going over there... and he just told me that while he is over there i am going to be everything pretty much, you know what helps him get up in the morning... and he was just like if you're my everything when i'm there and i come home to find out that things aren't the way they seemed, he was just like well a lot of people go crazy, literally insane from that. And that does concern me, because he's NOT going to be my everything ya know, because i'll be here surrounded by friends and family. and i'm not the type of person to go out looking for guys when i'm with someone, but if i meet someone, what then? i mean i know i would have to tell him over the phone, while he's there, and that would just suck. and i'm not saying that it's going to happen, but we have to be realistic. and i told him also that if at any point while he's there i'm unhappy, i will have to end it... and i'm not tlakin gbaout if i'm sad cuz i miss him or something, i'm talking if i feel like what wehhave is changing or if myt feelings change or i feel like his feelings change.. but that is me overanalyzing again, and we decided not to worry about it until it gets a little closer... we are jsut trying to see eachother first!
And he is requesting leave for September 24 which is just 1 month from today! and i see him for TWO weeks instead of just 4 days! I am really happy with him, and, from what i have seen so far, he is everything that i really have been looking for... and i know that in the past i have been scared to date those nice guys who would treat me right (sorry birdwell) but I think that that is something in the past... roger was really the best boyfriend i ever had... and by other people's standards that doesn't say much, which i understand, but he was the best of all to me... but i think that with each new guy they get better =) and brandon is the best! =)
ALright enough.... i'll do another entry in a lil bit! adios!
The new apartment.... BAD ASS! haha. i have stayed there two nights now and i love it..... i know that most people, especially my female friends, HATE living by themself... but i love it! i love not having to worry about anyone else beign there or getting in my way or just whatever. I"m so glad it worked out. ANd i know that for awile i was really upset about not styaing in Corpus but now i think it's a good thing, probably the best thing actually. From what I understand everyone is doing drugs, and i'm sure that they will party even more this year, and it's not a very good school academically anyway... so i think this is for the best. PLUS the fact that i'm going to a UT school will help me get all the classes i need to transfer to UTA.
Everyone has pretty much gone back to school already. But it's really not that bad, because i didn't talk to very many people, and the ones i did that left i didn't talk to most of them on a consistant basis, so it's all good. I just kick it with Travis, Julie, Blaine, and sometimes Roland and Roger.
Speaking of ROger... things are good with us. I think that we are both finally okay with being friends only, and we are both moving on. It's still nice to talk to him, because he knows me better than anyone, and he knows where I'm coming from, and since Bryan and Hol are gone, it's kinda nice. He said something when we were talking about brandon and he was like tell him he has a good girl and i was like wow, thanks rog. We usually talk once a week, sometimes we don't.. but that's okay too. I like where we are at. It means a lot to me that we are able to stay friends.
SO BRANDON is the best EVER and i am very happy with him.. even if we are having to do some crazy long distance shit. We talk everyday, atleast a few times, and i think that our situation is so much better than the situation i had with roger. I mean, somedays we barely even get to talk, but we still squeeze in a few minutes when we're driving to and from places, or on our lunch breaks or whenever we can fit in few minutes. As long as that keeps up, there is no reason it shouldn't work out... but i know brandon, and i don't think that anything is going to change... and like blaine said, i really could see it working out for us, just because of the type of people we are.
We have talked about a lot of different aspects of our relationship, from our ex's, to what we want, to what it's going to take to make things work, to the situation with him going to iraq. Last night he brought up the one thing that i am uneasy about.... about him going over there... and he just told me that while he is over there i am going to be everything pretty much, you know what helps him get up in the morning... and he was just like if you're my everything when i'm there and i come home to find out that things aren't the way they seemed, he was just like well a lot of people go crazy, literally insane from that. And that does concern me, because he's NOT going to be my everything ya know, because i'll be here surrounded by friends and family. and i'm not the type of person to go out looking for guys when i'm with someone, but if i meet someone, what then? i mean i know i would have to tell him over the phone, while he's there, and that would just suck. and i'm not saying that it's going to happen, but we have to be realistic. and i told him also that if at any point while he's there i'm unhappy, i will have to end it... and i'm not tlakin gbaout if i'm sad cuz i miss him or something, i'm talking if i feel like what wehhave is changing or if myt feelings change or i feel like his feelings change.. but that is me overanalyzing again, and we decided not to worry about it until it gets a little closer... we are jsut trying to see eachother first!
And he is requesting leave for September 24 which is just 1 month from today! and i see him for TWO weeks instead of just 4 days! I am really happy with him, and, from what i have seen so far, he is everything that i really have been looking for... and i know that in the past i have been scared to date those nice guys who would treat me right (sorry birdwell) but I think that that is something in the past... roger was really the best boyfriend i ever had... and by other people's standards that doesn't say much, which i understand, but he was the best of all to me... but i think that with each new guy they get better =) and brandon is the best! =)
ALright enough.... i'll do another entry in a lil bit! adios!