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Okay, so i haven't really been updating lately... I guess I could say that I've been busy, but I also could say that nothing really has happened.
Last weekend Bryan came in town. it was the last chance for me to see him before he deploys. He leaves for Iraq on Dec. 12. We had a lot of fun though... but I didn't get to spend really any time with just me and him, which sucked... but at the same time I think it made it easier to say good bye. The whole time he was here I could just tell it was killing him, like he couldn't look at me without having this sad face on. But i had promised him I wouldn't cry when we said goodbye, and i didn't. Of course I walked in Travis' apartment and my eyes filled up and I couldn't talk for 10 minutes. But I handled it better than I ever expected.
It's weird though. Before, with just Brandon gone, i had this void inside. And now, well I just feel like there is just this big chunk of ME missing. I can feel myself growing because of all these things.... but I miss my friend so much. Courtney leaves for the air force in March.... but atleast I have her a few more months. I"m going to see her next weekend for her 21st. I'm excited about that. I have never been to her home town ( near Dallas) so it should be interesting. You never know WHAT is going to happen when you're with that girl.
Me and Brandon are good. We had a little tiff for a few days, but everything is great. I just love that I can talk to him. like, i know i can say whatever I am thinking or feeling and even though he may not like it, we'll talk about it. I don't know. I am just ready for him to come home. I'm lonely! :( But i'm doing good, I really am. I mean, i have my days, and on those days I feel like the last 7 months have been dreadful... but they are just bad days and I get through it. With the holidays coming up I'm sure it will be hard... but atleast Hollie will be here for awhile.
How long will you be here Hol?
oops, now i gotta run to lunch... more later!
P.S. IT IS FREAKIN COOOOOOLLLLLLLLLD!
Last weekend Bryan came in town. it was the last chance for me to see him before he deploys. He leaves for Iraq on Dec. 12. We had a lot of fun though... but I didn't get to spend really any time with just me and him, which sucked... but at the same time I think it made it easier to say good bye. The whole time he was here I could just tell it was killing him, like he couldn't look at me without having this sad face on. But i had promised him I wouldn't cry when we said goodbye, and i didn't. Of course I walked in Travis' apartment and my eyes filled up and I couldn't talk for 10 minutes. But I handled it better than I ever expected.
It's weird though. Before, with just Brandon gone, i had this void inside. And now, well I just feel like there is just this big chunk of ME missing. I can feel myself growing because of all these things.... but I miss my friend so much. Courtney leaves for the air force in March.... but atleast I have her a few more months. I"m going to see her next weekend for her 21st. I'm excited about that. I have never been to her home town ( near Dallas) so it should be interesting. You never know WHAT is going to happen when you're with that girl.
Me and Brandon are good. We had a little tiff for a few days, but everything is great. I just love that I can talk to him. like, i know i can say whatever I am thinking or feeling and even though he may not like it, we'll talk about it. I don't know. I am just ready for him to come home. I'm lonely! :( But i'm doing good, I really am. I mean, i have my days, and on those days I feel like the last 7 months have been dreadful... but they are just bad days and I get through it. With the holidays coming up I'm sure it will be hard... but atleast Hollie will be here for awhile.
How long will you be here Hol?
oops, now i gotta run to lunch... more later!
P.S. IT IS FREAKIN COOOOOOLLLLLLLLLD!