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I feel so alone right now it's ridiculous. I'm becoming too dependent on my boyfriend, and it needs to stop. I need to be independent. I need to not be so lonely all the time when I'm not stimulated. Bottom line: I need to be comfortable by myself.
The next few months are going to be difficult. Geoff isn't in school this semester because his parents don't have the money to pay for his classes, so he has to find a job so he can help pay for school. I have a feeling that this semester is going to be much more difficult than the last. Not only am I taking more credits, but all of my classes are bunched up on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. I will have Tuesdays and Thursdays to myself, but I still have to wake up extra early every other day for class. Why did I choose to take a 9am? Oh yeah, I'm batshit insane.
I also need to push myself. I need to find a serious drive so I can maintain my 3.92 GPA so I can eventually transfer to Emerson. I know that if I can keep my grades they way they were last semester, I'll be able to apply for a shit-ton of scholarships so I don't have to pay out the ass for a decent education. I need to believe in myself. I've had a nice little vacation time with my boy, and now it's time for serious business. Let's be realistic, here. Geoff isn't going to be around all the time anymore. He's living in Boston, he's getting a new job, and chances are this job is going to make him work weekends so seeing him is going to be difficult. I need to be able to rely on myself now, I can't always lean on him. I need to refocus and put my everything into school and grades, because if I really want a successful future, this is what needs to happen.
The next few months are going to be difficult. Geoff isn't in school this semester because his parents don't have the money to pay for his classes, so he has to find a job so he can help pay for school. I have a feeling that this semester is going to be much more difficult than the last. Not only am I taking more credits, but all of my classes are bunched up on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. I will have Tuesdays and Thursdays to myself, but I still have to wake up extra early every other day for class. Why did I choose to take a 9am? Oh yeah, I'm batshit insane.
I also need to push myself. I need to find a serious drive so I can maintain my 3.92 GPA so I can eventually transfer to Emerson. I know that if I can keep my grades they way they were last semester, I'll be able to apply for a shit-ton of scholarships so I don't have to pay out the ass for a decent education. I need to believe in myself. I've had a nice little vacation time with my boy, and now it's time for serious business. Let's be realistic, here. Geoff isn't going to be around all the time anymore. He's living in Boston, he's getting a new job, and chances are this job is going to make him work weekends so seeing him is going to be difficult. I need to be able to rely on myself now, I can't always lean on him. I need to refocus and put my everything into school and grades, because if I really want a successful future, this is what needs to happen.