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Spring plays peek-a-boo, my son gets owly, my mother regains her sight and my husband & I have fun while doing bills.
Weather / Phenology:
The light is fluctuating. The clouds are coming in. We noticed yesterday that it is staying light until after six o’clock these days, but the cloud cover now seems pretty complete so we might not make it that late tonight. (That was written in the early afternoon - In fact, it was light until after six.) As I was finishing up the animal chores with Ch--, I noticed that the weather had changed significantly. The bitter edge is truly off the cold. There is a wind but it too feels warmer. It put me in mind of a pending thunderstorm. It was a wonderful if fleeting impression.
Mood Summary:
Once again my ten year old son seems to be having some trouble. He’s overly sensitive and contrary. He’s also fabricating some small lies. That bit is about testing me I think. The rest is possibly related to my own sensitivity.
I told my daughter, when she questioned me about his behavior after he spent the night at her place this weekend, that yes, he is louder and clunkier and more opinionated than he was before she moved out. I think he’s in an emotional / intellectual growth spurt. I likened it to the days when she herself was gaining most of her height. There was a time when the girl could not come down the stairs without tangling her feet and falling. This … awkwardness feels familiar to me. Interestingly, I suspect that she herself is in a similar growth phase. Hell, maybe we all are.
As for me? Well, when I started my soundtrack an hour or two ago, tears welled in my eyes when a bluegrass spiritual came on. (Down to the River, I think it’s called.) My shoulders are awfully tight despite the massage my husband gave me last night. I’m feeling the need to “handle” small things … to get little stuff off my list. I think I’m needing some down time…or some spiritual time.
Accomplishments:
I put things nice around the house. I made dinner and dessert. I finished my personal tally and “published” it through okcupid-now it has a link that would work for anyone. (I still need to spellcheck it tho’) R- & I took care of some financial stuff that was nagging at us. I talked to Sister D- three times. All in all it was a good day.
Five Gratitudes:
1) When R- & I discussed the checkbooks and accounts, Ch- made the strangest-coolest observation. He said, “So when you and dad are doing money stuff it’s like a date for you.” I was floored. I realized then that we’d been talking and flirting and planning with no edge to our voices. Neither of us was feeling stressed or put upon or desperate. And this directly on the heels of a major auto repair estimate. Life has changed. And I thank God that it has.
2) Gmom got a clean bill of health from the eye surgeon today. In fact, she tested very well and should be able to read if she wears reading glasses (300 strength?? - that’s according to my sister.)
3) My other-son-A- stepped up to the plate on behalf of my daughter today. I find that absolutely endearing.
4) The Godfather phoned me to check in on the car situation(s). I even had some answers for him. He’s going out of his way to offer assistance.
5) I’m grateful for the enneagram - I think the yoga pose it suggests for type four is very promising (it works the shoulders and neck -- the seat of any tension I hold these days) and I’m looking forward to trying out some of the other suggestions.
Exercise / Step Count:
Just a little yoga today. I was struck with a desire to go for a walk after the evening came on - I was just a bit too caught up in my other tasks. I’ll see what I can do about that tomorrow.
Next Tasks
(tasks = 4 per day / focuses = 4 per week / Z = this week’s zone)
1) finish 60 minutes home tending -- floors
2) finish 30 minutes home tending -- dusting & polishing
3) arrange town trip for Wednesday (groc list, errands, eye appt. etc)
4) write & submit Louden thing
* timer controlled writing and editing (mostly lj & keeping score)
F: Appearance: hair color, manicure, pedicure
F: Financial & Legal Issues: bills; deal w/ PC, car, funding, etc; live on budget / cash
F: Spirituality: develop meditation / yoga plan
F: Misc. small items on all lists: (Start by gathering those.) I have a need to cross shit off.
* Obsessions/Writing: Get all little journal / list / tally details completed
* Writing: Get something submitted to someone this week
Z: *Zone #4 -- "Bedroom" Master Bedroom, Bedroom Closet, Ch--'s Room
Goal Level Behaviors2006 Next Little Bit List Routines Tonight’s SkyOKCupid's meme results bug me. I hate all the crap about how I compared to other test takers. When I try to edit that section of the results out of the code, I screw up the borders of the table. I'm going to have to find a better system but until then, I'll just add the link to the test as follows:
Link to New & Improved Tally Here220 accomplishments, 7 health and body, 26 work and home, 13 mind and soul