Wednesday's Putterings

[moderately_mad]

Topics contained herein:
Bluebirds, a movie day, starting again.

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Familiar

[wynndow]

I both love and hate it when we both share a cycle, even when we haven't been in contact. Love it when it's a good cycle, hate it when we're both miserable.

For what it's worth, the weather may have played a big part for both of us in this most recent downturn. I didn't get out of bed on Monday until 2 in the afternoon. I was just a ball of misery, and getting up was too damn hard. I can't remember the last time it was that bad - I coped better when S- moved out and F- told me he was getting married. And there wasn't anything specific - I was just overwhelmingly sad. It sounds like it hit us both at nearly the same time, so maybe it was just a really bad reaction to more winter than we've had yet this year. It felt so much like spring, and then overnight, it was almost a foot of snow, and no end in sight. Knowing that this is typical March MN weather didn't help at all. It suddenly seemed as if this would last forever. I should have dragged myself out of bed and gone to the Conservatory, but I didn't think of it until yesterday, when it was no longer as necessary.

Yesterday, I snapped out of it. I cleaned the kitchen, made an excellent dinner, moved my bed to it's intended space, and bugged B- into cleaning her room. I still feel less than 100%, but better.

B- is going out of town for the weekend. Do you want to go to the Conservatory on Saturday or Sunday? Green growing things that smell like dirt could help a lot. Or you could just curl up on my couch and I'll feed you tea and chocolate chip cookies. Whatever you decide, I hope you feel better soon.

Re: Familiar

[moderately_mad]

I wondered.

Wouldn't it be awful if this link we have causes the second one to fall? A long time ago Woggie suggested that I work on maintaining spiritual/psychic boundaries ... and I know that you think I have no walls. I might want to actually do something about that and you might want to pull back from being so open to me and my, there's a word ... mimase?

mal·aise

But I'm not sure that there isn't another m-word that suits even better. Why is always the French that can capture my mood? Malaise and ennui -- half my natural state of being.

I've been doing a fair bit of magical thinking lately.

I'm working on the snapping out of it again today. I've been trying half-heartedly all week. On Tuesday I prowled a local greenhouse while M-- was at her appointment in F.L. That helped. Yesterday's movies helped. The birds have helped. Incremental steps.

I might take you up on the sofa offer. Saturday will be all about taking Ch-- to his G&T class. If the boys are up for it, I could go to the conservatory that afternoon ... we'd be pretty darn close already. I might borrow R--'s car and go into town on Sunday. We'll see what the menstrual goddesses have in store.

Would there really be chocolate chip cookies?

:D

Re: Familiar

[wynndow]

I DO NOT joke about choclate chip cookies. That would just be mean.