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yesterday:
i broke down and paid 5.99 for a car wash special. i vowed to only wash my car myself but it was such a steal!! and my car was beginning to embarass me.
took my first biology test in yrs. i didn't study as much as i had planned to, but i feel i did good. (please, hopefully).
went to payless to find some spiffy non-animauled shoes, to no avail. i've come to the conclusion that despite cute shoes' existence, i just feel more comfortable in my sandals, allstars, or black maryjanes.
i became very depressed over the present state of the life of stephanie. yes, sociology is the only thing that interested me at one time (as far as college degrees/majors go) but now i'm ever and ever more contemplating other routes/majors. i think the fact that IHS offered a scholarship for this major was a huge determining factor, but music has always been my one and only. i'm thinking about graphic designing and music production for now.
sociology is always something that i want to learn about, but social work has never been a life career plan for me. i never planned on doing it for more than a few years. what a waste of a degree.
if for some reason music doesn't work out for me, which i'm optimistic (only because of other people telling me) that it will, even if i'm stuck doing weddings for the rest of my life (hey, its actually really good money)...then i would at least like to do something related to it, or something where i'm required and appreciated to be creative and artsy.
my freaking debt (car is a big one) is stressing me the fuck out. i wish i didn't have any bills. i also wish people didn't steal my identity!
i'm just being a baby, i know, just realizing how old 23 is. but i'm actually a very young 23: no kids or abortions, no marriage or divorce, heh- no degree, either, AND i still live with mommy and daddy (but i pay rent!).
i want to spend a day at the career center and plan my life.
jason has been telling me for the last year that i should do a zine. and every time, i just tell him, "ya, that would be cool, i should." and then soon i was telling him how kristin was working on one. and after looking at his boxful of zines (one of which i saw in book form at this awesome hip hop store on haight last summer- amazing!), i have decided to take on his recommended challenge.
i have been working more on my music lately, and i must continue to do so. i MUST continue to do so daily!!! i really need to get some songs together and start performing again- i don't care if its by myself! arrrg!
i need to get my leo on.
ha.
that's what they say, and i think its true.
tata's for now.
i broke down and paid 5.99 for a car wash special. i vowed to only wash my car myself but it was such a steal!! and my car was beginning to embarass me.
took my first biology test in yrs. i didn't study as much as i had planned to, but i feel i did good. (please, hopefully).
went to payless to find some spiffy non-animauled shoes, to no avail. i've come to the conclusion that despite cute shoes' existence, i just feel more comfortable in my sandals, allstars, or black maryjanes.
i became very depressed over the present state of the life of stephanie. yes, sociology is the only thing that interested me at one time (as far as college degrees/majors go) but now i'm ever and ever more contemplating other routes/majors. i think the fact that IHS offered a scholarship for this major was a huge determining factor, but music has always been my one and only. i'm thinking about graphic designing and music production for now.
sociology is always something that i want to learn about, but social work has never been a life career plan for me. i never planned on doing it for more than a few years. what a waste of a degree.
if for some reason music doesn't work out for me, which i'm optimistic (only because of other people telling me) that it will, even if i'm stuck doing weddings for the rest of my life (hey, its actually really good money)...then i would at least like to do something related to it, or something where i'm required and appreciated to be creative and artsy.
my freaking debt (car is a big one) is stressing me the fuck out. i wish i didn't have any bills. i also wish people didn't steal my identity!
i'm just being a baby, i know, just realizing how old 23 is. but i'm actually a very young 23: no kids or abortions, no marriage or divorce, heh- no degree, either, AND i still live with mommy and daddy (but i pay rent!).
i want to spend a day at the career center and plan my life.
jason has been telling me for the last year that i should do a zine. and every time, i just tell him, "ya, that would be cool, i should." and then soon i was telling him how kristin was working on one. and after looking at his boxful of zines (one of which i saw in book form at this awesome hip hop store on haight last summer- amazing!), i have decided to take on his recommended challenge.
i have been working more on my music lately, and i must continue to do so. i MUST continue to do so daily!!! i really need to get some songs together and start performing again- i don't care if its by myself! arrrg!
i need to get my leo on.
ha.
that's what they say, and i think its true.
tata's for now.