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well, now that the holiday season has pretty much passed, i've lost my motivation to talk about it. i got a couple of new poems out of it, it being my time in the small town i grew up in for 6 days and spending this much time with my parents. i got quite homesick towards the end, well, after the first day. i remembered what amazing friends i have back at home. one of my best friends from highschool called me a few times to come over to exchange gifts. because of our now estranged friendship i was a little reluctant to go over, but i finally made it over on the night of the 25th. back in may (the last time i saw her) at her birthday party, i mentioned how much i loved her coffee table, and her boyfriend remembered that, the two of them made me a coffee table with their own two hands. they painted and varnished and cut and nailed and even inscribed "Xmas 2005, to Kim, love Bobbi and Jayson" on the bottom. i gave them a few homemade magnets and a chapbook, which hardly compares, so i'm working on a little package for them to send this week. there are always so many things that i see and want to buy for her, but never have the extra money or time.
for christmas, i walked away with enough money to pay this semester's tuition, exactly what i wanted. now just to wait for the EI to come rolling back in and all will be okay in my financial world.
i definitely thought i'd run into sam over the break, and almost did. i dropped my mom off at the grocery store entrance and went to find a parking spot, noticing he was parked right across from me. i ran inside as quickly and inconspicuously as possible, and saw gordie inside. it really freaked me out, my heart started beating a mile a minute. he didn't see me, and i remember feeling like crying and hiding in my sweater. it was the only day i left the house not wearing a binder, i felt like i owed it to my mom to not be such a freak for the entire time i was there, even though i felt as vulnerable as a bleeding, injured deer in a forest full of wolves.
i spent an afternoon driving around with arwen and jeremy, so that he could say goodbye to the lovely greenness and fresh mountain air of hope, bc and the rest of canada. we played on the dock at kawkawa lake and talked about all the things we wish we'd done together and trips we should have taken this past year while they were here. they talked about applying for a commonlaw visa when arwen's year in australia runs out, so i doubt they'll be coming back any time soon. seeing arwen's mum was nice, and comforting in it's discomfort.
i returned home on my birthday after a four hour bus ride to find evin recently arrived back at our apartment. i was so relieved to see him, and explore our new bond together since the holidays. we tried to talk on the phone or text message every day. it was a difficult year at home for both of us, and being able to support each other through it, yet not actually fix anything for the other was such a growing experience. it's really strengthened my appreciation for the relationship and for him as an individual. you learn so much about a person when you get to see them back in their habitat, interacting with their family and seeing where they came from.
we spent my birthday having ho-ho's and beer with arwen and jez over michael moore dvds, and finished up the night with our own christmas gift exchange. i've grown so much in the past few years. i'm so glad to be with someone that i care about so much that i don't look for them to make me complete, but just enhance my life. our christmas was fine without the gifts, but it was a nice bonus. especially the part where he gave me a screwdriver i've been wanting for months. it was really exciting, and i've already used it like 5 times. okay, maybe twice, but whatever.
new year's eve morning was spent witnessing the marriage of an ftm guy and his partner from hawaii. they posted online that they needed witnesses, and we agreed, and it was such a fantastic and romantic way to begin the year. we've spent a bit of time with them here before they go back, maybe we'll bring them to the slam tonight as well. new year's eve was spent with nathaniel, lili, carla, laura and mel at lili and carla's place. we all got totally shitfaced and played board games. i think evin and i left at around 6am, the last two or so hours it was just the two of us and carla sitting around with a guitar, a drum and some poetry that i was too drunk to remember.
the next day i was supposed to be at the buddhist centre for 10am, but i didn't wake up until 4pm. we rolled out of bed, went to mcdonalds and came home to watch tv and go back to sleep. not without running into chrystalene and sean on the way there, the whole way to mcdonalds (i know, bad hippy) we talked about what lovely people they both are.
now it's today, and we're sitting around, and plan on going to the slam later. one more day until evin goes back to school and i become officially useless. oh, evin seems to think it's a big deal, but i'm just glad it's over- i now officially have an arts degree in archaeology. hah. would you like to supersize that sir?
happy new year everybody. i love you all.
for christmas, i walked away with enough money to pay this semester's tuition, exactly what i wanted. now just to wait for the EI to come rolling back in and all will be okay in my financial world.
i definitely thought i'd run into sam over the break, and almost did. i dropped my mom off at the grocery store entrance and went to find a parking spot, noticing he was parked right across from me. i ran inside as quickly and inconspicuously as possible, and saw gordie inside. it really freaked me out, my heart started beating a mile a minute. he didn't see me, and i remember feeling like crying and hiding in my sweater. it was the only day i left the house not wearing a binder, i felt like i owed it to my mom to not be such a freak for the entire time i was there, even though i felt as vulnerable as a bleeding, injured deer in a forest full of wolves.
i spent an afternoon driving around with arwen and jeremy, so that he could say goodbye to the lovely greenness and fresh mountain air of hope, bc and the rest of canada. we played on the dock at kawkawa lake and talked about all the things we wish we'd done together and trips we should have taken this past year while they were here. they talked about applying for a commonlaw visa when arwen's year in australia runs out, so i doubt they'll be coming back any time soon. seeing arwen's mum was nice, and comforting in it's discomfort.
i returned home on my birthday after a four hour bus ride to find evin recently arrived back at our apartment. i was so relieved to see him, and explore our new bond together since the holidays. we tried to talk on the phone or text message every day. it was a difficult year at home for both of us, and being able to support each other through it, yet not actually fix anything for the other was such a growing experience. it's really strengthened my appreciation for the relationship and for him as an individual. you learn so much about a person when you get to see them back in their habitat, interacting with their family and seeing where they came from.
we spent my birthday having ho-ho's and beer with arwen and jez over michael moore dvds, and finished up the night with our own christmas gift exchange. i've grown so much in the past few years. i'm so glad to be with someone that i care about so much that i don't look for them to make me complete, but just enhance my life. our christmas was fine without the gifts, but it was a nice bonus. especially the part where he gave me a screwdriver i've been wanting for months. it was really exciting, and i've already used it like 5 times. okay, maybe twice, but whatever.
new year's eve morning was spent witnessing the marriage of an ftm guy and his partner from hawaii. they posted online that they needed witnesses, and we agreed, and it was such a fantastic and romantic way to begin the year. we've spent a bit of time with them here before they go back, maybe we'll bring them to the slam tonight as well. new year's eve was spent with nathaniel, lili, carla, laura and mel at lili and carla's place. we all got totally shitfaced and played board games. i think evin and i left at around 6am, the last two or so hours it was just the two of us and carla sitting around with a guitar, a drum and some poetry that i was too drunk to remember.
the next day i was supposed to be at the buddhist centre for 10am, but i didn't wake up until 4pm. we rolled out of bed, went to mcdonalds and came home to watch tv and go back to sleep. not without running into chrystalene and sean on the way there, the whole way to mcdonalds (i know, bad hippy) we talked about what lovely people they both are.
now it's today, and we're sitting around, and plan on going to the slam later. one more day until evin goes back to school and i become officially useless. oh, evin seems to think it's a big deal, but i'm just glad it's over- i now officially have an arts degree in archaeology. hah. would you like to supersize that sir?
happy new year everybody. i love you all.