wax and wane
I am so very very tired, feeling super sensitive, having difficulty concentrating and feel like someone has taken certain parts of my anatomy and wrapped twine around them from the inside (and not in a hot fetish bondage way either).
Any guesses why?
Why yes, its thanks to my lovely menstrual cycle. A couple of days after the full moon and I'm in waning mode as well - waning energy and enthusiasm. Le sigh. It started yesterday evening and to boot left me in Not a good headspace at all. It just sucks.
The PMS this go-around was killer...I was crankier than I've been in ever...I stupidly thought that once I would start the goddamn thing the mood disturbance would go away. But no. It just mutated from cranky to insecure and sensitive. Lovely. Two things I pride myself on are trying to be are level headed and confident. To be like this is even more of a kick in the teeth.
I had a killer shoot on Friday night with James Graham. James is not only an amazing photographer, but he's a too-cool human being as well. Our shoot was mellow, comfortable and yet brimming with energy. I'll even go as far as to say that his taste in music is fairly decent too ;-) High praise indeed.
Anyway, James was kind enough to send me a finished image last night. Unfortunately, menstrual emily is feeling out of sorts with her body and feels icky and body-shy. Slight issue there...especially when the image of you is a nude one. (oops). So I can't really look at the image and see it other than seeing my thighs and going "oh my god...my thighs...". Yes folks, I am that serious. A picture of me standing in 6 inch tall patent leather stiletto lace up boots, with antique Persian jewellery dangling around my neck and from my ears, standing on a two foot tall pedestal, looking majestic (i think), and all I can see when I look at the image are two things - James' killer job with lighting and the cellulite on my thighs.
So yeah. I have my period and I just want to go home and curl into a ball and suck my thumb.
How about you all?
Any guesses why?
Why yes, its thanks to my lovely menstrual cycle. A couple of days after the full moon and I'm in waning mode as well - waning energy and enthusiasm. Le sigh. It started yesterday evening and to boot left me in Not a good headspace at all. It just sucks.
The PMS this go-around was killer...I was crankier than I've been in ever...I stupidly thought that once I would start the goddamn thing the mood disturbance would go away. But no. It just mutated from cranky to insecure and sensitive. Lovely. Two things I pride myself on are trying to be are level headed and confident. To be like this is even more of a kick in the teeth.
I had a killer shoot on Friday night with James Graham. James is not only an amazing photographer, but he's a too-cool human being as well. Our shoot was mellow, comfortable and yet brimming with energy. I'll even go as far as to say that his taste in music is fairly decent too ;-) High praise indeed.
Anyway, James was kind enough to send me a finished image last night. Unfortunately, menstrual emily is feeling out of sorts with her body and feels icky and body-shy. Slight issue there...especially when the image of you is a nude one. (oops). So I can't really look at the image and see it other than seeing my thighs and going "oh my god...my thighs...". Yes folks, I am that serious. A picture of me standing in 6 inch tall patent leather stiletto lace up boots, with antique Persian jewellery dangling around my neck and from my ears, standing on a two foot tall pedestal, looking majestic (i think), and all I can see when I look at the image are two things - James' killer job with lighting and the cellulite on my thighs.
So yeah. I have my period and I just want to go home and curl into a ball and suck my thumb.
How about you all?