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I'm seeing WICKED on January 19th and I'm so excited I could pee on myself. I'm going to cry through the entire show and I'm so excited!!! My mom even gave me 50 dollars for it so I could get a shirt, and hopefully a poster.
Hmm. I have hardly seen anyone in the past month except for Wiggle, Sam, Nick and June. I am always just so busy. But, since I'm not working at Macys EVERYDAY FOR 10 HOURS now- I can actually start catching up with old friends. I must admit, it has been nice getting big paychecks though. I didnt need help with rent this month. WOO.
Things with Sam are going great and I can't get enough. I still have a bad habit of comparing him to Shiv every once in a while- which just depresses me because Sam is so amazing and everything Shiv did was so mediocre and half-assed...it just makes me mad that I wasted so much time on him. I understand he paid a lot to come visit me, but....that doesnt make the relationship work. I dont know, he just was...not a good significant other. His presents were all recycled or something he bought with a gift certificate just so he could use it. I'm not about material bullshit, but its all about the effort and the thought you put into it, you know? And Sam doesn't say mean things and then bark at me when i get upset about it and say things like "God, cant you take a joke?" and make ME feel like im psycho when its HIM being rude! AHH GOD I HATE THAT IM EVEN STILL THINKING ABOUT THIS SHIT. I'm still so upset with him. and I hate it that I still think about him even though it's negative. I just want him out of my life completely. I never wanted to be "that girl" who hates her ex-boyfriend. But the thing was, he was never my boyfriend! He wanted everything from a relationship and wanted to "be with me forever" but never wanted the title of my boyfriend. God I feel like a used piece of shit. I dont even know what I'd do if he tried to contact me. Spontaneously combust, maybe.
Anywho, Wiggle is leaving for NY in a week and I am depressed about it. I'm going to be so bored without her! But, thats what the phone and texting is for. I will miss her a lot.
hmmm....
YAY WICKED
Hmm. I have hardly seen anyone in the past month except for Wiggle, Sam, Nick and June. I am always just so busy. But, since I'm not working at Macys EVERYDAY FOR 10 HOURS now- I can actually start catching up with old friends. I must admit, it has been nice getting big paychecks though. I didnt need help with rent this month. WOO.
Things with Sam are going great and I can't get enough. I still have a bad habit of comparing him to Shiv every once in a while- which just depresses me because Sam is so amazing and everything Shiv did was so mediocre and half-assed...it just makes me mad that I wasted so much time on him. I understand he paid a lot to come visit me, but....that doesnt make the relationship work. I dont know, he just was...not a good significant other. His presents were all recycled or something he bought with a gift certificate just so he could use it. I'm not about material bullshit, but its all about the effort and the thought you put into it, you know? And Sam doesn't say mean things and then bark at me when i get upset about it and say things like "God, cant you take a joke?" and make ME feel like im psycho when its HIM being rude! AHH GOD I HATE THAT IM EVEN STILL THINKING ABOUT THIS SHIT. I'm still so upset with him. and I hate it that I still think about him even though it's negative. I just want him out of my life completely. I never wanted to be "that girl" who hates her ex-boyfriend. But the thing was, he was never my boyfriend! He wanted everything from a relationship and wanted to "be with me forever" but never wanted the title of my boyfriend. God I feel like a used piece of shit. I dont even know what I'd do if he tried to contact me. Spontaneously combust, maybe.
Anywho, Wiggle is leaving for NY in a week and I am depressed about it. I'm going to be so bored without her! But, thats what the phone and texting is for. I will miss her a lot.
hmmm....
YAY WICKED