(no subject)
I'm worried that I'm not even gonna have kids. Or a husband. Lol not even a boyfriend. But I trust God. With all my heart. I know I shouldn't worry. I won't worry. God is bigger than any and all worries I'll ever have. Bigger than that monster that follows me everywhere forever lurking never attacking, I call it anixety. We used to be friends. Anixety used to be apart of my identity, until I learned that God is a better friend than anxiety or any of my mental illness ever was. I was taught to take pills and learned to rely on chemicals. Substances, instead of people early on. Less threatening. Less risky. Less vulnerability. Less exposed weakness. Chemicals always understand. They're always available. Easier to rely upon. They want to understand. They want to take the time to listen and take the pain away. At least that's how it is at first. But so does God. He is always here to listen and wants to help you with your pain. And He won't take your money, your piece of mind. You don't have to hide Him like a dirty little secret. You don't have to lie about Him to others. He won't steal your health. He is here for you always and wants the best for you. Always. Amen.