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it's been nearly a year now, and i've been 'working' up to this 40 day water fast. the longest i've done so far is 6 days back in october. so now i'll be fasting may 29 - june 13. then a 2 day break for dad's visit, and back again june 16 - jul 9. i'm nervous, but what better time since i filed for unemployment and school doesn't start for another 25 days. it's actually easier breaking it up. 25 days is very doable. i've already experienced healing pains and caffeine withdrawal, but what's hardest is the unending boredom. my last meal is SF redbull, gummy worms, and the nestle ice cream cone. i've already cleaned out my closet in anticipation of what will be too big for me. this is really the most opportune time for a water fast though, since i'm a total loser right now with no car, no $, no job, and no real adult obligations really. if i treat this like a possible physical dare, then i know i'll be able to do it. however, water fasting is more challenging emotionally and mentally than it is physically. it tends bring forth unpleasant emotional realities. i know if we live together again, there's no way i would be able to not eat for an extended amount of time, so really now is be the perfect time to do this.