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Last night I was a complete wreck on the phone with Rob. I've been getting so frustrated with my parents again and I was telling him everything about my parents and how they always make me feel like a bad kid and that I'm not smart enough and that I just always do stupid things. I laid in my bed talking to him trying to fight back the tears but the more I talked about my problems the harder it became and I eventually just started crying hysterically on the phone. He made everything seem ok. He hates a lot of the things my parents put me through and he knows they're going to put us through a lot of shit as well but he said he won't leave me regardless. He said we could get through anything together and as long as we want things to work we'll make it work. I told him I want out, that they're doing the same shit they did during the summer that made me want to move out. He told me he understands and that I really have to think about what I want to do. He knows it'll be hard for me and that I should only leave if I really just can't take it anymore. He told me that in the summer when he finally gets his shit together and has his own apartment I can move in with him. He said he'd support me, pay for everything. All I'd have to pay for is my car and car insurance. I told him I wouldn't even have a car. My parents wouldn't let me take my car. He told me he'd buy me one. He's a mechanic and plenty of people just leave thier car because they don't want to put the money into it. He told me he'd buy the parts and fix the car up for me. He told me he'd do anything and everything he can do to make sure I'm ok. Whatever I need, he'll try to get for me. I cried and told him I didn't deserve him and that he doesn't deserve the bullshit my parents are going to put us through. He told me he loved me and that he doesn't deserve me. He thinks he's low class and has nothing to offer him. I told him he has the world to offer me. No one has ever been so willing to help me. No one has ever cared about me as much as he does. I never thought I could be so lucky. I just hope I never lose him.