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So today I saw Rob. He picked me up at about 3 and we drove off with no idea of where we were going. I wanted to go to the crossings but it was way too crowded so we headed down to the mall. After I nearly had a panic attack because of all the people he decided we were going to the crossings anyway. Thanks babe. I appreciate you trying to stick me into situations where I will freak out. So we went shopping. I bought my daddy some pajama pants for Christmas and I bought myself a cute lacy spagetti strap tank which Rob definitely seemed to like. ;-) I have to try it on actually. So on the way to figure out what we were doing next we ended up having a pretty big fight/discussion which ended with me crying but it was definitely a much needed conversation. We talked about my fear of commitment, or rather my fear of losing him and ending up with nothing. He defintely made me feel 100% sure that this relationship is going to work as long as we both want it to work. After that we went to Friendly's which was very nice. "I want desert...but...not this kinda desert..." Oh I love my baby. So after that we just drove around a bit and we almost got into an accident because of some fucking asshole. Rob stopped the car and almost got out to beat his ass. Yeah not good. Thankfully I calmed him down enough to keep driving. He appologized for scaring me and then i decided I wanted to just go home and relax. So we went back to my house and watched Eddie Murphy Raw with my parents. We laughed a lot, it was nice. Finally my parents realized I wanted some alone time with Rob and they left. He left at about 10:30 because he thought I needed to get to bed for work tomorrow.
I would have never thought I could be this happy before. Even though I'm still a little afraid of commitment he definitely made me feel so much safer in our relationship. He showers me with affection and attention and we have so much fun together. He's so perfect for me and I think he feels that I'm perfect for him too. Today he told me he's in love with me and asked me if I was in love with him. I told him no. That I love him, but I wasn't in love with him. He was slightly upset. "would you rather me lie?" "no...it's ok..." I've been hurt too many times to just let myself fall so easily. I can say though, that at this point I have never felt so strongly about anyone and felt as if things might just work out. I finally got that guy I deserve. That guy who cares about me and gives me the affection/attention that I need. He's not going to let me run and he's not going to let me give up on us. Something none of my ex's were able to do.
I love you Rob.
I would have never thought I could be this happy before. Even though I'm still a little afraid of commitment he definitely made me feel so much safer in our relationship. He showers me with affection and attention and we have so much fun together. He's so perfect for me and I think he feels that I'm perfect for him too. Today he told me he's in love with me and asked me if I was in love with him. I told him no. That I love him, but I wasn't in love with him. He was slightly upset. "would you rather me lie?" "no...it's ok..." I've been hurt too many times to just let myself fall so easily. I can say though, that at this point I have never felt so strongly about anyone and felt as if things might just work out. I finally got that guy I deserve. That guy who cares about me and gives me the affection/attention that I need. He's not going to let me run and he's not going to let me give up on us. Something none of my ex's were able to do.
I love you Rob.