evening ramblings
This is the first year, when I don't have school or prospect of school in the near future. There's been one september - 2004 - when I didn't have school (it was after I graduated from UoG, but before I started Ryerson), but then I already knew that I'd be going next semester. Since I graduated this time, there is no certainty in anything. Even if (and it's a big "if") we win the contract for the Ottawa project, it's only for 5 months. Yes, it's still something and I'll have something concrete to put on the resume, but I'll be in almost the same boat as before at the end of February.
Another fly in my ointment is this collider debate. I don't know who to believe - people who say that it can produce black holes that can swallow the earth, people who say it can't, people who say it can but won't, people who say if it does we won't know what hit us, or people who say that if it does we'll have the opportunity to appreciate the sheer horror of the prospect. It's an empty worry and my stressing about it won't influence the outcome, but I can't help it. I wish anxiety came with an "off" switch.
And I wish I wasn't such a coward...
Another fly in my ointment is this collider debate. I don't know who to believe - people who say that it can produce black holes that can swallow the earth, people who say it can't, people who say it can but won't, people who say if it does we won't know what hit us, or people who say that if it does we'll have the opportunity to appreciate the sheer horror of the prospect. It's an empty worry and my stressing about it won't influence the outcome, but I can't help it. I wish anxiety came with an "off" switch.
And I wish I wasn't such a coward...