a little vent

[mobileschirping]

It seems like sometimes in life, lots of good stuff happens in a row, and then you just get hit with the bad. I hate drama. But there is so much of it in my life as of now. I'm sick of people forgetting where their loyalties belong. I'm sick of feeling like my opinion doesn't matter. I hate knowing that things are happening in a wrong way, and that there isn't much I can do about it.

College just empties me. I feel like my personality and my values are slowly getting sucked out. Everyday I put up with more and more crap from people. It makes me hate myself and that shouldn't happen.

But despite all the crap, I am so glad that I have people here at Millsaps who I can talk to, and even more so, I'm glad that I have Carter as a best friend, because he listens to me complain about stuff nonstop and just lets me rant until im ok. And when I'm excited about somethign dumb like crafts, he listens to me squeal or whatever it is that we girls do when we are excited. So thank you Carter for everything.... even though you don't read this.

here's a little lovedrug happiness to cheer me up

i want to make you happy
but i’ve fallen, i’m sorry
i thought my wings could hold me up
with angels not demons
you don’t know how cool you are
to find the ways to love me without shame

i want my life to be red
with trees and like autumn
i’d float away from evil and
down towards the healing
so sad now we have become
the children trapped in the mazes
i’d give my soul to the one who has the courage
to find me and free me now

if i run i’ll just become like all the faking lights
so let the thunders take me under
and break my legs tonight

let the thunders take me under
and break my legs tonight

let the thunders take me under
and break my legs tonight