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sleepy sleepy AWAKE!
both at the same time, what an annoying state?
memorialize the 19th birthday: everyone made me feel awesome, loved, good. A little past midnight, a few minutes into my technical birthday, lots of greetings, hugs. Later, lunch with Laura, Hannah, Robert, Kevin. I was so happy to see them, I hope they noticed. They did, i think. We ate and sat and talked for so long and maybe I'm not right in fleeing from my roots. I mean, not coming home for spring break, and planning long study abroads and summers in boston and whatever else.
Anyways, my friends planned a huge group dinner in the north end, where they don't card so we all had fancy wine with fancy dinner and it was delicious. I sat near gabe, christine, olivia, shana. We took a few pictures, made jokes about the mobsters. Then a walk to mike's pastrys and then back to tufts for STRONG margaritas.
Very fun night, the thing i want to stand out in my memory is the outstanding quality of my friends. Good times w. a certain someone, too. I don't know where that may be going but i'm optimistic.
Spring break is going to be a good experience for me. Clean NC air, books i hope, climbing and hiking i hope, and generally a week to refocus. College is a constant social experience, and here I come up to 7 days of no one else my age. I don't want to spend the week missing my friends, they will be around when i come back. I want to save my mental focus for introspection and literature. I've been taking things for face value recently and not using my imagination.
I think thats almost because i am so happy. I am content, i don't need to look farther. But i should look farther and be a bit more analytical, so what does that mean? It means i am a whiner, apparently. Some sort of balance with happiness on one side, and entity x on the other. OR, real happiness on one side, and flimsy glee on the other. But this seems so genuine. I'll think about it. Over spring break? Sure.
On the subject of my happiness, I have come to decide its a product of clearing up frustrations. My needs are being met, I don't have any pent up desires without outlets.
I climb and run for exercise
I eat healthily for my body
I talk and goof for social things
I go to class to learn and expand (and my grades are good!)
I volunteer so i don't feel useless
I even have a bit of a love interest
On that fulfilled note, good night.
both at the same time, what an annoying state?
memorialize the 19th birthday: everyone made me feel awesome, loved, good. A little past midnight, a few minutes into my technical birthday, lots of greetings, hugs. Later, lunch with Laura, Hannah, Robert, Kevin. I was so happy to see them, I hope they noticed. They did, i think. We ate and sat and talked for so long and maybe I'm not right in fleeing from my roots. I mean, not coming home for spring break, and planning long study abroads and summers in boston and whatever else.
Anyways, my friends planned a huge group dinner in the north end, where they don't card so we all had fancy wine with fancy dinner and it was delicious. I sat near gabe, christine, olivia, shana. We took a few pictures, made jokes about the mobsters. Then a walk to mike's pastrys and then back to tufts for STRONG margaritas.
Very fun night, the thing i want to stand out in my memory is the outstanding quality of my friends. Good times w. a certain someone, too. I don't know where that may be going but i'm optimistic.
Spring break is going to be a good experience for me. Clean NC air, books i hope, climbing and hiking i hope, and generally a week to refocus. College is a constant social experience, and here I come up to 7 days of no one else my age. I don't want to spend the week missing my friends, they will be around when i come back. I want to save my mental focus for introspection and literature. I've been taking things for face value recently and not using my imagination.
I think thats almost because i am so happy. I am content, i don't need to look farther. But i should look farther and be a bit more analytical, so what does that mean? It means i am a whiner, apparently. Some sort of balance with happiness on one side, and entity x on the other. OR, real happiness on one side, and flimsy glee on the other. But this seems so genuine. I'll think about it. Over spring break? Sure.
On the subject of my happiness, I have come to decide its a product of clearing up frustrations. My needs are being met, I don't have any pent up desires without outlets.
I climb and run for exercise
I eat healthily for my body
I talk and goof for social things
I go to class to learn and expand (and my grades are good!)
I volunteer so i don't feel useless
I even have a bit of a love interest
On that fulfilled note, good night.