I'm Not Anything
I could really use a wish right now.
I'm a little stressed out lately. I feel horrible because it's nothing I want to talk about and it's making me seem distant. I don't need to burden people with my problems. I'm also wondering if it's related to the amount of headaches I've been getting or the amount of shedding my hair is doing as of late.
Recently, someone got mad at me, and I asked for an explanation. Well, in this person's eyes I said a bunch of things, that were misconstrued, and I tried to explain that along with a ridiculous amount of apologizing. It's been a month and I haven't heard anything from that person since. It's stressful because on the one hand, I don't have time for childishness, and if you can't accept my apology because you'd rather cause drama just to hurt me, then fine, be that way. We don't have to be friends anymore if that's the case. I don't have time for that shit. On the other hand, this person has been so close to me, and in recent years we have drifted through nobody's fault in particular, but it still hurts to want to be friends with someone who clearly hates your guts for no reason.
I'm also stressed out about my living situation. I got so excited recently, having found a house in Dearborn for a crazy cheap price and my dad was actually on board with it. Unfortunately, the house was at auction, so it went to the highest bidder, and as you can guess I didn't get it. I'm so tired of living with my family and I want to be able to have my own place with all my own stuff. I want to paint and build things and I can't. I feel like I'm in a hurry because I'm almost 26 and I'm still living at home with my parents.
I feel like I'm stuck. I'm not moving out, I'm not getting married, I'm not published, I'm not anything.
I've been trying to find a second job because as much as I like the Vitamin Shoppe, I can't live off my paychecks. I get good hours though, and that's the shitty part. It's hard to find a job that can work around my schedule too. Also, no one is interested in hiring me. I don't understand why it's so hard to find a job. I'm a goddamn college graduate for cryin out loud. I guess that part's not something to be totally stressed out about because I do have a job. I could just use more money.
I could use a lot of things, actually. Mainly, a turn in my favor. I'm trying to stay positive.
I'm a little stressed out lately. I feel horrible because it's nothing I want to talk about and it's making me seem distant. I don't need to burden people with my problems. I'm also wondering if it's related to the amount of headaches I've been getting or the amount of shedding my hair is doing as of late.
Recently, someone got mad at me, and I asked for an explanation. Well, in this person's eyes I said a bunch of things, that were misconstrued, and I tried to explain that along with a ridiculous amount of apologizing. It's been a month and I haven't heard anything from that person since. It's stressful because on the one hand, I don't have time for childishness, and if you can't accept my apology because you'd rather cause drama just to hurt me, then fine, be that way. We don't have to be friends anymore if that's the case. I don't have time for that shit. On the other hand, this person has been so close to me, and in recent years we have drifted through nobody's fault in particular, but it still hurts to want to be friends with someone who clearly hates your guts for no reason.
I'm also stressed out about my living situation. I got so excited recently, having found a house in Dearborn for a crazy cheap price and my dad was actually on board with it. Unfortunately, the house was at auction, so it went to the highest bidder, and as you can guess I didn't get it. I'm so tired of living with my family and I want to be able to have my own place with all my own stuff. I want to paint and build things and I can't. I feel like I'm in a hurry because I'm almost 26 and I'm still living at home with my parents.
I feel like I'm stuck. I'm not moving out, I'm not getting married, I'm not published, I'm not anything.
I've been trying to find a second job because as much as I like the Vitamin Shoppe, I can't live off my paychecks. I get good hours though, and that's the shitty part. It's hard to find a job that can work around my schedule too. Also, no one is interested in hiring me. I don't understand why it's so hard to find a job. I'm a goddamn college graduate for cryin out loud. I guess that part's not something to be totally stressed out about because I do have a job. I could just use more money.
I could use a lot of things, actually. Mainly, a turn in my favor. I'm trying to stay positive.