Life keeps going
So my life got a little shaken up the past two weeks...i'd ask for advice...but i think that quote "advice is what we ask for when we don't like the answer" thing applies to me in this case LOL...besides, it's out of my hands...even if i had the choice, i can't do anything about it really. I have to choose between keeping a friend and risking a possibly disastrous confrontation that would harm not only me, but my family as well, or i could lose the friend, which is already happening anyway, and keep things quiet over here. *shrug* either way it's a gamble. And still, it's out of my hands. But it needs to hurry up and fix itself b/c i'm starting to lose sleep over it...
despite the mess, the smile has more or less been able to stay on my face :)
i heard an excellent quote last nite...or read, rather :) "being sad is no excuse for having a frown". I LOVE IT!!! AAHAHA! :) made my day!
anywho...
i had a revelatory moment today
and it was scary...
come january 6th, i will be how old? 18
*shudders*
as awesome and fun as that's gonna be...it's like a slap in the face, someone shaking me awake and saying HEY ARE YOU GONNA DO SOMETHING? or are you just gonna sit there and let your future happen for you?!?!?! you have to take RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOURSELF now. Soon you'll have to get a job and your parents won't be there to take the heat if you mess up anymore. You're going to have to make decisions ON YOUR OWN (that's a big one for me...) it's YOUR LIFE and it's BEGINNING in LESS THAN A YEAR!!!
so i guess i better get to work eh?
so i had a bit of a panic attack today during second period. it was unnerving. i all of a sudden felt very cold, small, alone and insignificant.
but then i started thinking about it more and decided that no matter what happens, where i end up going to college, or what i major in or what job i get or what friends i make, it's gonna be fun no matter what ;) i fell into the trap that a lot of ppl unknowingly fall into and thought to myself several times: wow, i'm a senior now, and the best years of my life are coming to an end!
But really, (or so i've been told...and so i've observed) they're not the best. Awesome, but i know they're not my best. :D though imma really miss everyone i've gotten to know here. :/
no matter. it's gonna be fun :) and everything's gonna work out all right in the end :P
LOL...i so was going to talk about something completely different when i sat down to update my journal LOL...but i guess this stuff was weighing on my mind more heavily. *shrug* i feel better now tho :P i guess what i meant to talk about isn't as important LOL...i love the way that works. Just sit down, start typing, and scratch your head and wonder where in the world all this stuff came from? LOL ever happen to you? *shrug* well seeing as how we don't have band today, imma go do HW so i can chillax and watch a movie or something tonite...or go to sleep early *yawn* LOL...one of the two :P have an excellent day :)Jer29:11:D <3 to all!
despite the mess, the smile has more or less been able to stay on my face :)
i heard an excellent quote last nite...or read, rather :) "being sad is no excuse for having a frown". I LOVE IT!!! AAHAHA! :) made my day!
anywho...
i had a revelatory moment today
and it was scary...
come january 6th, i will be how old? 18
*shudders*
as awesome and fun as that's gonna be...it's like a slap in the face, someone shaking me awake and saying HEY ARE YOU GONNA DO SOMETHING? or are you just gonna sit there and let your future happen for you?!?!?! you have to take RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOURSELF now. Soon you'll have to get a job and your parents won't be there to take the heat if you mess up anymore. You're going to have to make decisions ON YOUR OWN (that's a big one for me...) it's YOUR LIFE and it's BEGINNING in LESS THAN A YEAR!!!
so i guess i better get to work eh?
so i had a bit of a panic attack today during second period. it was unnerving. i all of a sudden felt very cold, small, alone and insignificant.
but then i started thinking about it more and decided that no matter what happens, where i end up going to college, or what i major in or what job i get or what friends i make, it's gonna be fun no matter what ;) i fell into the trap that a lot of ppl unknowingly fall into and thought to myself several times: wow, i'm a senior now, and the best years of my life are coming to an end!
But really, (or so i've been told...and so i've observed) they're not the best. Awesome, but i know they're not my best. :D though imma really miss everyone i've gotten to know here. :/
no matter. it's gonna be fun :) and everything's gonna work out all right in the end :P
LOL...i so was going to talk about something completely different when i sat down to update my journal LOL...but i guess this stuff was weighing on my mind more heavily. *shrug* i feel better now tho :P i guess what i meant to talk about isn't as important LOL...i love the way that works. Just sit down, start typing, and scratch your head and wonder where in the world all this stuff came from? LOL ever happen to you? *shrug* well seeing as how we don't have band today, imma go do HW so i can chillax and watch a movie or something tonite...or go to sleep early *yawn* LOL...one of the two :P have an excellent day :)Jer29:11:D <3 to all!