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wow.. its been a long time since ive writtin huh? oh well.. ok heres what ive been up to. ive been swimming sooo much... oh and i went to the warped tour.. yeha that was awesome i had tons of fun.. and what else.. man how come this already looks boring? i dk my self im not in a very good mood if u cant tell already.. maybe i shouldnt even be alive.. i think thats it.. and im serious. its wierd though i havent had felt like this in a supppperrrr long time!! since school.. it was bad when i was in school.. if u dont know what im talkind bout.. well i dk what to tell u.. ive been through a bunch of shit and i hate it but i guess life jsut isnt fair right? what excatly is fair?
im afraid i'll do this certain thing again but i really dont wannt to anymore... i hate it but when i do it.. it just makes me realize that i am alive and that i still hurt.. and also.. its jsut like a medicine..i get this warm feeling inside and i calm down all of a sudden.. its a relief.. but what the hell.. y am i talking bout this.. its not like noone even cares or even reads my journal.. oh well i really dont care.. well i guess ill stop wasting ur time
im afraid i'll do this certain thing again but i really dont wannt to anymore... i hate it but when i do it.. it just makes me realize that i am alive and that i still hurt.. and also.. its jsut like a medicine..i get this warm feeling inside and i calm down all of a sudden.. its a relief.. but what the hell.. y am i talking bout this.. its not like noone even cares or even reads my journal.. oh well i really dont care.. well i guess ill stop wasting ur time