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Why? WHY DO THEY ALWAYS FUCKING DO THIS!
ow says: (9:56:34 PM)
i feel i owe you an explanation of somthing
ow says: (9:57:00 PM)
remmber wen i flipped out on you for somthing and it caused you to brake up with me
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:57:34 PM)
yeah.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:57:36 PM)
why?
ow says: (9:58:19 PM)
well i kinda had a phobia (well i still do i guess*-)) of breaking up with people, just can';t do it
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:58:44 PM)
lol dont worry about it i never really wanted to go out anyway. it was a releif to not be goign out with you, trust me!
ow says: (9:58:47 PM)
so the only reason i got mad at you was so you wwould brake up with me because i was bored of the relationshipp
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:03 PM)
i was just annoyed that you never apologised after
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:27 PM)
why do you think i didn't really care? I kept tryin to call and crap because i thought something was actually wrong!
ow says: (9:59:29 PM)
i didn't
ow says: (9:59:36 PM)
hm thats not like me
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:37 PM)
I was goign to ask you to come over so we could break up anyway!
ow says: (9:59:43 PM)
i'm usually ove apologetic
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:55 PM)
no, thats why i stopped talkign to you after
ow says: (10:00:02 PM)
o
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:00:44 PM)
not gonna lie, i figured if i just shut up and went out with you, you;d get over it and thenwe could just be friends again and you'd stop hitting on me but *-)oh well that clearly didn't work.
ow says: (10:01:02 PM)
yah
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:01:49 PM)
is this sudden guilt complex why youve be3en talking to me again?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:01:54 PM)
r is some new intrigue?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:01:56 PM)
or*
ow says: (10:02:09 PM)
well not that i look back on it i see the reason i wanted to go out with you so bad was because i was really jelous of the love between you and stephen
ow says: (10:02:15 PM)
i guess i wanted to feel that
ow says: (10:02:51 PM)
n o i usually talk to you wen you come on
ow says: (10:03:11 PM)
well now**
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:03:30 PM)
i was just really bitter because for over a year i considered you one of my best friends, and after that you just made me feel like it was all because you likded me... i think i felt more betrayed then stephen.... i hated for a long, long time because of that. i figured you wre lyign all the time when we were friends and just waiting until me and steophen broke up...
ow says: (10:04:25 PM)
lol no i kinda gave up on that around the 5 month period
ow says: (10:04:59 PM)
i considered you a best friend to and i just thought you could give me the same love as you gave stephen
ow says: (10:05:16 PM)
thats wat it was really all about wen you think about it
ow says: (10:05:26 PM)
me wanting to be loved like that
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:05:46 PM)
.... well, no offense, but to be blunt, you wanting that made me ruin one of the best friendships i think i ever had.
ow says: (10:06:00 PM)
with stephen?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:06:07 PM)
... no you.
ow says: (10:06:10 PM)
o'
ow says: (10:06:21 PM)
yah well i made a mistake
ow says: (10:06:31 PM)
but that whole ordeal really taught me alot
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:06:43 PM)
why the sudden heart to heart?
ow says: (10:06:53 PM)
why not
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:00 PM)
i dont mean to offend you with my suspicion, but from my experience, you and steohen have played me a lot.
ow says: (10:07:15 PM)
you haven't played us?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:36 PM)
not to my knowledge.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:43 PM)
i alsways at least told you everything.
ow says: (10:07:49 PM)
true
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:52 PM)
if i have, let me know.
ow says: (10:08:07 PM)
well its hard to remmber
ow says: (10:08:27 PM)
well you don't need to have any suspision
ow says: (10:08:34 PM)
i don't blame you if you do
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:08:42 PM)
thats good to know.
ow says: (10:09:11 PM)
well i apologizer for wat i've done in the past
ow says: (10:09:26 PM)
and thank you because that whole experience taught me alot about relationships
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:09:43 PM)
.... we went out for a week. and saw each other like, three times. and awkwardly, at that.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:09:50 PM)
(im still weird about braces...)
ow says: (10:09:55 PM)
the qwhole thing i mean
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:09:58 PM)
ah.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:10:01 PM)
fair enough.
ow says: (10:10:18 PM)
from the day you and stephen strted making out on my bed till the day i freaked on you
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:10:21 PM)
No offense, but you just made me bitter, and like guy friends meant nothing because all they wanted was sex.
ow says: (10:10:31 PM)
lmao'
ow says: (10:10:51 PM)
thats exactly wat alyssa said
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:04 PM)
well, st least you guys seem tog et along.
ow says: (10:11:11 PM)
8 months
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:37 PM)
swoot
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:53 PM)
and for the record, i was ahnging out with you before i even knew stephen.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:57 PM)
hich really made it worse.
ow says: (10:12:09 PM)
i know
ow says: (10:12:26 PM)
it was really intresting couple years wasn't it
ow says: (10:12:36 PM)
i'd ike to write a book
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:12:53 PM)
....that not really the word i'd use, lookign back on it. I'm very glad you rexperiance was enjoyable.
ow says: (10:12:56 PM)
it seems kinda like a story, it would make a good book
ow says: (10:13:17 PM)
it wasn't all enjoyable
ow says: (10:13:25 PM)
the ghoood out wayed the bad
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:14:15 PM)
...It didn't for me. It might have, were it not for going out with you, and for stephen not leaving me along for 6 months afterword, and then the second i forgot about everything dragging back up and throwing it in my face.
ow says: (10:14:50 PM)
it didn't know it was so bad for you
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:15:09 PM)
funny you should mention this now... i re read all my jounrals and poetry not 2 hours ago...
ow says: (10:15:33 PM)
i did last week
ow says: (10:15:39 PM)
tyou know what i found
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:15:45 PM)
what?
ow says: (10:16:00 PM)
that thing you drew for me the cletic symbol of friendship
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:16:14 PM)
is that what brought this on?
ow says: (10:16:21 PM)
no
ow says: (10:16:27 PM)
you logging on brought this thing
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:16:27 PM)
*Dib
ow says: (10:16:28 PM)
in
ow says: (10:16:29 PM)
on
ow says: (10:16:47 PM)
i dunno shannon
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:16:56 PM)
?
ow says: (10:17:25 PM)
i just started talking to youand it led to this
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:17:48 PM)
hm. well, in a way im glad it did.... i've been waiting for you to apologise for a long time...
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:18:09 PM)
and nits good to tell you how pisse doff i was that i lost you as a friend
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:18:25 PM)
and how bitter and cycical i was for months.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:18:30 PM)
cynical*
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:19:10 PM)
why are you stirring this all up now? whenever i start to make peace with something in my head, to move on, and look back on things favorable, like a good experience, one of you always comes and stirs it up.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:19:44 PM)
makes me remember everything, sparks this whole nostaligic conversation that going to make me pensive all week.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:20:12 PM)
i had just barely got used to talking to you again...
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:20:52 PM)
sry, im just... getting so tired of all of this... i really hate this im sorry
ARGH! So, that was Taylor. yay.
Not. Weird. i just finished reading all my journals and crap.
Like i need this now.
Argh.
ow says: (9:56:34 PM)
i feel i owe you an explanation of somthing
ow says: (9:57:00 PM)
remmber wen i flipped out on you for somthing and it caused you to brake up with me
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:57:34 PM)
yeah.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:57:36 PM)
why?
ow says: (9:58:19 PM)
well i kinda had a phobia (well i still do i guess*-)) of breaking up with people, just can';t do it
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:58:44 PM)
lol dont worry about it i never really wanted to go out anyway. it was a releif to not be goign out with you, trust me!
ow says: (9:58:47 PM)
so the only reason i got mad at you was so you wwould brake up with me because i was bored of the relationshipp
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:03 PM)
i was just annoyed that you never apologised after
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:27 PM)
why do you think i didn't really care? I kept tryin to call and crap because i thought something was actually wrong!
ow says: (9:59:29 PM)
i didn't
ow says: (9:59:36 PM)
hm thats not like me
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:37 PM)
I was goign to ask you to come over so we could break up anyway!
ow says: (9:59:43 PM)
i'm usually ove apologetic
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (9:59:55 PM)
no, thats why i stopped talkign to you after
ow says: (10:00:02 PM)
o
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:00:44 PM)
not gonna lie, i figured if i just shut up and went out with you, you;d get over it and thenwe could just be friends again and you'd stop hitting on me but *-)oh well that clearly didn't work.
ow says: (10:01:02 PM)
yah
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:01:49 PM)
is this sudden guilt complex why youve be3en talking to me again?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:01:54 PM)
r is some new intrigue?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:01:56 PM)
or*
ow says: (10:02:09 PM)
well not that i look back on it i see the reason i wanted to go out with you so bad was because i was really jelous of the love between you and stephen
ow says: (10:02:15 PM)
i guess i wanted to feel that
ow says: (10:02:51 PM)
n o i usually talk to you wen you come on
ow says: (10:03:11 PM)
well now**
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:03:30 PM)
i was just really bitter because for over a year i considered you one of my best friends, and after that you just made me feel like it was all because you likded me... i think i felt more betrayed then stephen.... i hated for a long, long time because of that. i figured you wre lyign all the time when we were friends and just waiting until me and steophen broke up...
ow says: (10:04:25 PM)
lol no i kinda gave up on that around the 5 month period
ow says: (10:04:59 PM)
i considered you a best friend to and i just thought you could give me the same love as you gave stephen
ow says: (10:05:16 PM)
thats wat it was really all about wen you think about it
ow says: (10:05:26 PM)
me wanting to be loved like that
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:05:46 PM)
.... well, no offense, but to be blunt, you wanting that made me ruin one of the best friendships i think i ever had.
ow says: (10:06:00 PM)
with stephen?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:06:07 PM)
... no you.
ow says: (10:06:10 PM)
o'
ow says: (10:06:21 PM)
yah well i made a mistake
ow says: (10:06:31 PM)
but that whole ordeal really taught me alot
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:06:43 PM)
why the sudden heart to heart?
ow says: (10:06:53 PM)
why not
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:00 PM)
i dont mean to offend you with my suspicion, but from my experience, you and steohen have played me a lot.
ow says: (10:07:15 PM)
you haven't played us?
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:36 PM)
not to my knowledge.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:43 PM)
i alsways at least told you everything.
ow says: (10:07:49 PM)
true
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:07:52 PM)
if i have, let me know.
ow says: (10:08:07 PM)
well its hard to remmber
ow says: (10:08:27 PM)
well you don't need to have any suspision
ow says: (10:08:34 PM)
i don't blame you if you do
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:08:42 PM)
thats good to know.
ow says: (10:09:11 PM)
well i apologizer for wat i've done in the past
ow says: (10:09:26 PM)
and thank you because that whole experience taught me alot about relationships
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:09:43 PM)
.... we went out for a week. and saw each other like, three times. and awkwardly, at that.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:09:50 PM)
(im still weird about braces...)
ow says: (10:09:55 PM)
the qwhole thing i mean
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:09:58 PM)
ah.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:10:01 PM)
fair enough.
ow says: (10:10:18 PM)
from the day you and stephen strted making out on my bed till the day i freaked on you
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:10:21 PM)
No offense, but you just made me bitter, and like guy friends meant nothing because all they wanted was sex.
ow says: (10:10:31 PM)
lmao'
ow says: (10:10:51 PM)
thats exactly wat alyssa said
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:04 PM)
well, st least you guys seem tog et along.
ow says: (10:11:11 PM)
8 months
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:37 PM)
swoot
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:53 PM)
and for the record, i was ahnging out with you before i even knew stephen.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:11:57 PM)
hich really made it worse.
ow says: (10:12:09 PM)
i know
ow says: (10:12:26 PM)
it was really intresting couple years wasn't it
ow says: (10:12:36 PM)
i'd ike to write a book
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:12:53 PM)
....that not really the word i'd use, lookign back on it. I'm very glad you rexperiance was enjoyable.
ow says: (10:12:56 PM)
it seems kinda like a story, it would make a good book
ow says: (10:13:17 PM)
it wasn't all enjoyable
ow says: (10:13:25 PM)
the ghoood out wayed the bad
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:14:15 PM)
...It didn't for me. It might have, were it not for going out with you, and for stephen not leaving me along for 6 months afterword, and then the second i forgot about everything dragging back up and throwing it in my face.
ow says: (10:14:50 PM)
it didn't know it was so bad for you
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:15:09 PM)
funny you should mention this now... i re read all my jounrals and poetry not 2 hours ago...
ow says: (10:15:33 PM)
i did last week
ow says: (10:15:39 PM)
tyou know what i found
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:15:45 PM)
what?
ow says: (10:16:00 PM)
that thing you drew for me the cletic symbol of friendship
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:16:14 PM)
is that what brought this on?
ow says: (10:16:21 PM)
no
ow says: (10:16:27 PM)
you logging on brought this thing
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:16:27 PM)
*Dib
ow says: (10:16:28 PM)
in
ow says: (10:16:29 PM)
on
ow says: (10:16:47 PM)
i dunno shannon
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:16:56 PM)
?
ow says: (10:17:25 PM)
i just started talking to youand it led to this
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:17:48 PM)
hm. well, in a way im glad it did.... i've been waiting for you to apologise for a long time...
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:18:09 PM)
and nits good to tell you how pisse doff i was that i lost you as a friend
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:18:25 PM)
and how bitter and cycical i was for months.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:18:30 PM)
cynical*
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:19:10 PM)
why are you stirring this all up now? whenever i start to make peace with something in my head, to move on, and look back on things favorable, like a good experience, one of you always comes and stirs it up.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:19:44 PM)
makes me remember everything, sparks this whole nostaligic conversation that going to make me pensive all week.
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:20:12 PM)
i had just barely got used to talking to you again...
"If you wish to lead the orchestra, you must turn your back on the crowd." says: (10:20:52 PM)
sry, im just... getting so tired of all of this... i really hate this im sorry
ARGH! So, that was Taylor. yay.
Not. Weird. i just finished reading all my journals and crap.
Like i need this now.
Argh.