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You were once
my one companion . . .
you were all
that mattered . . .
You were once
a friend then my world
was shattered . . .
Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
wishing you were
somehow near . . .
Sometimes it seemed
if I just dreamed,
somehow you would
be here . . .
Wishing I could
hear your voice again . . .
knowing that I
never would . . .
Dreaming of you
won't help me...
Too many years
fighting back tears . . .
Why can't the past
just die . . .?
Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
knowing we must
say goodbye . . .
Try to forgive . . .
teach me to live . . .
give me the strength
to try . . .
No more memories,
no more silent tears . . .
No more gazing across
the wasted years . . .
Help me say
goodbye
This song from The Phantom of the Opera sums up my emotional state at the moment.. i think my AIM away message says it too... but the funny thing is that my mood is rather happy... like i said before i REALLY have to let go of the past... oh well i officially HATE AP Bio (not that i didnt hate it before but it has past the point of recovery) oh well.. anyway.. i dont have a date to prom so i dont think im going... im a reject lol.. i bought my prom dress already and everything... but im not sure if i still want to wear it.. i liked the dress when i bought it but now im unsure of it.. it cost ME $189.. maybe ill sell it on ebay and make the reserve $189 lol.. i dont even have an ebay account.. im sure i could use a friend's.. maybe ill sell it if i get a date andanother dress... oh yeah tom o'brien asked me to prom tonight but i REALLY dont wanna go with him so i told him i was most likely not going.. i feel bad but i REALLY REALLY dont wanna go with him.. this sucks..oh well.. prom is may 20th.. so ive got a little bit of time.. tickets go on sale the 29th.. the same day as teen arts... which i am singing a song with one of my freshmen from peer leadership.. lol maggie's little brother luke.. he's cool.. oh yeah another thing that sucks... the spring concert for choir is on may 19th.. the daybefore prom.. and the day after is a tennis tournament that i would like to go see... probably wont... oh well as soon as this file liam sent me is finished im going to bed.. i have calc at 6 am tomorrow... goodnight to anyone who possibly reads this.. its probaly just myself that reads it lol