Lost dream

[mnickey]

Well the title pretty much says it all. The dream was lost and only one person knew about it. I don't know if I even want to share it even now that it's not a possibility at least for a long while. I had hope there for a bit but no more. Time to refocus yet again and see where life leads me this time. Damnit i was so fucking close to but I got scooped. I could have fucking had it!!!!!!

I had the plan, I applied for it and everything but someone got there first.

FUCK!!!
Gotta go vent so I can let it go, the sooner I let it go the sooner I can refocus right?
Right?
........ right?