Trying to explain
A combination of busyness and general blah has kept me from posting of late. The busyness I can explain; the blah, I cannot. I have many things to share and the lot of you have posted a surpassing number for me to comment on. (Even though I haven't been posting, I have been faithfully keeping up with my flist.) But I just don't feel like reaching out. It's almost like I think I'm going to get burned. Silly, I know.
I don't think I'm grieving for Mayotte or the life there. I'm not generally that kind of person, and truth be told, I haven't much thought about Mayotte since being back. I'm thrilled to be here in continental France and moving toward the next chapter in our lives.
But there is this wait before the world trip, and there are a plethora of things to organize, do, and buy for it, and there is a family wedding to prepare and prepare for, and there is the fact that we are squatting at my mil's house. It's hard not having a space of one's own, for me anyhow. Maybe that is what is wrong with me. I never have any alone time here. My attention is constantly, constantly being solicited. I'm on overdrive, often emotionally, and that is the most wearing on me.
I guess been doing what I can to cut back, as it were. I've been shutting down but not meaning to shut out.
So, this is just a "hello" and a "how are you?" and a "I'm thinking of you."
I don't think I'm grieving for Mayotte or the life there. I'm not generally that kind of person, and truth be told, I haven't much thought about Mayotte since being back. I'm thrilled to be here in continental France and moving toward the next chapter in our lives.
But there is this wait before the world trip, and there are a plethora of things to organize, do, and buy for it, and there is a family wedding to prepare and prepare for, and there is the fact that we are squatting at my mil's house. It's hard not having a space of one's own, for me anyhow. Maybe that is what is wrong with me. I never have any alone time here. My attention is constantly, constantly being solicited. I'm on overdrive, often emotionally, and that is the most wearing on me.
I guess been doing what I can to cut back, as it were. I've been shutting down but not meaning to shut out.
So, this is just a "hello" and a "how are you?" and a "I'm thinking of you."