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star spinning
Tonight at midnight whitney and I went star spinning on the softball fields. It was amazing. I saw a shooting star. I layed barefoot in the grass until my toes were frozen. I had a really nice conversation with a really great friend. We got hungry so we went back to her room and ordered pizza. It was vegetable from Dominos because Godfather's wouldn't answer. We chowed down an entire small pizza, listened to music, looked at pictures and just chilled on her futon. It felt good. I felt good.
I talked to John tonight, briefly. It went well. I finished the conversation feeling proud of myself. I left it feeling more hopeful than i have in a long time.
I am almost done! I just have to finish my reflection paper tomorrow morning and then I'm finished. I'll get up at eight thirty and do it by nine and hten I can sleep again until ten, shower, print off my zillions of papers and then go to class and finish up. then it will be study study study! finals, then my grandma's, then HOME!
I snapped at Sara today, and then she hung up on me. I tried to apologize but she had already hung up, so... I felt guilty until I realized she had just hung up. so...
so I guess some things never change.
I need some new pictures of myself. I need so new music. It is time to make a shift. I feel it coming, gradually, like that one night in Leah's room. the whole world was rolling in a new direction, and for the life of me I couldn't figure out where to set stuff down.
So I have jobs this summer. I may apply a few other places, just to see if I can have some options. I like options. i didn't get those last summer.
Things are looking up. Pizza, stars, and a shift in life. It isn't all bad.
Tonight at midnight whitney and I went star spinning on the softball fields. It was amazing. I saw a shooting star. I layed barefoot in the grass until my toes were frozen. I had a really nice conversation with a really great friend. We got hungry so we went back to her room and ordered pizza. It was vegetable from Dominos because Godfather's wouldn't answer. We chowed down an entire small pizza, listened to music, looked at pictures and just chilled on her futon. It felt good. I felt good.
I talked to John tonight, briefly. It went well. I finished the conversation feeling proud of myself. I left it feeling more hopeful than i have in a long time.
I am almost done! I just have to finish my reflection paper tomorrow morning and then I'm finished. I'll get up at eight thirty and do it by nine and hten I can sleep again until ten, shower, print off my zillions of papers and then go to class and finish up. then it will be study study study! finals, then my grandma's, then HOME!
I snapped at Sara today, and then she hung up on me. I tried to apologize but she had already hung up, so... I felt guilty until I realized she had just hung up. so...
so I guess some things never change.
I need some new pictures of myself. I need so new music. It is time to make a shift. I feel it coming, gradually, like that one night in Leah's room. the whole world was rolling in a new direction, and for the life of me I couldn't figure out where to set stuff down.
So I have jobs this summer. I may apply a few other places, just to see if I can have some options. I like options. i didn't get those last summer.
Things are looking up. Pizza, stars, and a shift in life. It isn't all bad.