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is it wrong to hope that he will change his mind? Am I being a fool in love just setting herself up for hurt?
I don’t even know what happened and I’m not sure after I got over the initial shock whether it has still all soaked in- maybe it’s just that I haven’t really had time to think about it and who knows maybe its different
maybe this time I was the one testing things not him
excerpt from him in 2005-now looking at that date was a little scary to see how much of my life i spent in this relationship
“Sometimes, when you get comfortable in a relationship, you decide to test it, to see what you can get by with. If you push too far, then all of a sudden what you thought was a good thing is no longer a good thing, and you don’t know how it got that way, and you can’t take things back to the way that they used to be, no matter how hard you try. You can only push so far so many times, before someone will reach the breaking point. And when that happens you find yourself with nothing at all. Which is a bad thing for both of you.
And why is it that you have a way of making me think of things that I have not prepared myself to think about?
And no I don’t think I can magically fix everything, although it would be nice sometimes. I know that I can’t do that.
And now you just said you’re sorry for it, it’s nice to see that I’m not the only one that’s sorry.”
I probably need to just start to move on but I don’t exactly know how that happens- i think i’m doubly hurt/confused cuz i’ve never been the one dumped before- all I can do now i guess is hope that what he said and how much he cared for me is true which would mean that this hurts just as much for him as me- but with the way this ended so easily and casually for him I find that hard to believe
I don’t even know what happened and I’m not sure after I got over the initial shock whether it has still all soaked in- maybe it’s just that I haven’t really had time to think about it and who knows maybe its different
maybe this time I was the one testing things not him
excerpt from him in 2005-now looking at that date was a little scary to see how much of my life i spent in this relationship
“Sometimes, when you get comfortable in a relationship, you decide to test it, to see what you can get by with. If you push too far, then all of a sudden what you thought was a good thing is no longer a good thing, and you don’t know how it got that way, and you can’t take things back to the way that they used to be, no matter how hard you try. You can only push so far so many times, before someone will reach the breaking point. And when that happens you find yourself with nothing at all. Which is a bad thing for both of you.
And why is it that you have a way of making me think of things that I have not prepared myself to think about?
And no I don’t think I can magically fix everything, although it would be nice sometimes. I know that I can’t do that.
And now you just said you’re sorry for it, it’s nice to see that I’m not the only one that’s sorry.”
I probably need to just start to move on but I don’t exactly know how that happens- i think i’m doubly hurt/confused cuz i’ve never been the one dumped before- all I can do now i guess is hope that what he said and how much he cared for me is true which would mean that this hurts just as much for him as me- but with the way this ended so easily and casually for him I find that hard to believe