life is somewhat resolved
[WEDNESDAY]so. um wed was horrible. i cried and cried over the whole eric thing. god, i hate being a girl at times. we get emotionally insane over little things and cant think straight at all.. i started telling eric a bunch of things. made him feel worse for sometime. i didnt even mean to. i was trying to make things better.
...im okay now though, i talked to webb for a long time. got things off my chest... and i came to my senses about it all.
[HORSES]penny has been so wonderful latley. i couldnt be happier with her progress. her trot=wonderful, god its soo nice. took some time, but now its soo perfect. her jog is pretty nice too, good enough for the green class. im really excited for saturday. its the first show im really excited about and i know i can do really well, since wilma died. penny reminds me so much of wilma, i think thats why i like her so much. penny's grown a lot lately too, her muscle and tone is coming out really nicely. and now shes 16hh at the withers, almost 16.1 at the hip. i could definently walk away on sat with the day high point for green, and even make up most of my points that i missed at the last show and then walk away at the end of the series with one of the first-third place buckles.
..the show is small enough, hopefully it will be almost done with by the time i leave to go to Webb's dads service memorial. either way im going to the service. it means so much to webb and i REALLy wanna be there for him. i can always do good at the next show or something.
[THURS] we dropped off the little kids toys at the Howe Ave elementary school. i went in colin kellys car. his mom is the nicest ever. we "bonded" lol. seriously, it was really nice though, the whole morning just went so perfect. i really needed that after wed. it made my mood SO much better. <33.
thanks kids. <333
[TODAYS FRIDAY!]
today has gone by nicely. nothin special but nothing bad either. i like life, so im not complaining. lol. sol came by school at lunch and dropped off the invitations for his birthday party.. the BDAY BASH.. he wrote that on the flyer. yes. i love it "BDAY BASH".. one word about this party will be my favorite. SEX... haha .. no "CAKE" and anyone who knows me knows why "cake" is so special. not the band and not a real cake to eat. :D
[BOYS] ive decided who i "like". i think its possible for me to do that. hahahahahahahahah. and my parents [dads side-mom could care less] apparently approve, even though they've never met him.. they've heard a lot about him though i guess.? <3
my back hurts, im gonna go play SNOOD.
"your december 7th entry is like the emoest thing ive EVER seen" -anon.
----god, im still mad about that. fuck you. your in an emo band with lyrics like "cut my throat slit my wrists"..GOD. dont give me shit like that.
okay <3333 BYE
...im okay now though, i talked to webb for a long time. got things off my chest... and i came to my senses about it all.
[HORSES]penny has been so wonderful latley. i couldnt be happier with her progress. her trot=wonderful, god its soo nice. took some time, but now its soo perfect. her jog is pretty nice too, good enough for the green class. im really excited for saturday. its the first show im really excited about and i know i can do really well, since wilma died. penny reminds me so much of wilma, i think thats why i like her so much. penny's grown a lot lately too, her muscle and tone is coming out really nicely. and now shes 16hh at the withers, almost 16.1 at the hip. i could definently walk away on sat with the day high point for green, and even make up most of my points that i missed at the last show and then walk away at the end of the series with one of the first-third place buckles.
..the show is small enough, hopefully it will be almost done with by the time i leave to go to Webb's dads service memorial. either way im going to the service. it means so much to webb and i REALLy wanna be there for him. i can always do good at the next show or something.
[THURS] we dropped off the little kids toys at the Howe Ave elementary school. i went in colin kellys car. his mom is the nicest ever. we "bonded" lol. seriously, it was really nice though, the whole morning just went so perfect. i really needed that after wed. it made my mood SO much better. <33.
thanks kids. <333
[TODAYS FRIDAY!]
today has gone by nicely. nothin special but nothing bad either. i like life, so im not complaining. lol. sol came by school at lunch and dropped off the invitations for his birthday party.. the BDAY BASH.. he wrote that on the flyer. yes. i love it "BDAY BASH".. one word about this party will be my favorite. SEX... haha .. no "CAKE" and anyone who knows me knows why "cake" is so special. not the band and not a real cake to eat. :D
[BOYS] ive decided who i "like". i think its possible for me to do that. hahahahahahahahah. and my parents [dads side-mom could care less] apparently approve, even though they've never met him.. they've heard a lot about him though i guess.? <3
my back hurts, im gonna go play SNOOD.
"your december 7th entry is like the emoest thing ive EVER seen" -anon.
----god, im still mad about that. fuck you. your in an emo band with lyrics like "cut my throat slit my wrists"..GOD. dont give me shit like that.
okay <3333 BYE