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[mmoany]

There's something that's really bothering me. I don't really know why, but I just can't seem to be HAPPY here. I don't just mean at my job, I mean in my apartment, in this city, in this state. I just feel like it's all crappy and I want more then this. Am I asking for too much? Am I wrong to feel this way? I hate that I have like, NO friends here. I basically get up, feed the cats, go to work, come home, feed the cats, read/watch TV/workout, go to bed. And it's the same thing everyday. Once in a while on the weekends I REALLY let loose and see a movie... woo. I just want to have someone to hang out with. I want something fun to do that's unique to me. I can't do any more crafts... I barely sold ANY of the ones I made for the stupid craft fair so I sure as heck don't plan on making any more of them. Truthfully I don't really have anything else here. If it wasn't for Brian and my lack of money I would probably quit my job, move back to Ohio, and live with my parents until I found a job out there. I miss my family. I wish I could be close to Brian's family but they're not like that and I don't get it. I mean, if I lived close to my parents, we'd be over there for dinner like, every Sunday or something. I work with Brian's Dad (and currently his sister), and they live only a few blocks from us, but we hardly EVER see them. We hardly EVER go over there. We only go over when I basically ask them to invite us over. I just wish we could be closer to them. It's SO FRUSTRATING! I'll admit I've applied for TONS of jobs in Ohio. I'm just hoping that I'll get a well paying one and convince Brian to move there. Ugh. Anyway, I just needed to rant.

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