i wonder sometimes...
hey. have been doing alot of "deep" thinking lately. sometimes that is not such a good thing. sometimes i make myself dizzy and sick with whatever goes on in my head. not the best feeling. but then again, u cant be on top every single day can you? that just wouldnt be normal and frankly if u were like that i would smack you everytime i saw you and did not feel as equally "chipper". its been i think about at least 2 full months of feeling great so a break from the happiness is expected i suppose. im glad it didnt last as long as before tho (the break i mean). in a way it is a reality check (ur right kels). and despite the things i dwell on it also gives me a chance to really look at what i appreciate. sure i may have some irrational thoughts that i am positive you do not want to know the details of ("cliche teenage girl beliefs" and then diving a little deeper...) but i still have my common sense to know that they are not good and i should not play into them. and yet it still nags at you...the insecurities, lack of self- liking and "crazy" thoughts that so called normal people dont have. rubbish. more like bullshit. what am i talking about...dude i dont even know. just all of it i suppose. but what am i talking about now? i am damn lucky i know this. im healthy, have family and friends that i love...yea ive said this a million times. screw it if ur sick of hearing it ill say it again. i love you all and thanks for putting up with me :) even if i do try and succeed in annoying you! no regrets. as ash-uh-lee would put it and whoever else, im borrowing it because its true..."Live Love Laugh"
~Amy