josh just left for alaska.

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um. ok. sitting in gwens room at two thirty. she went to phx tonight ot see the boy. i am going to sleep on her bed because i am so hurty from couch sleeping and i think it will probably be ok with her. maybe i should have asked? ky, leem, and myself stayed in tucey and went to target for like an hour at least. we made superbowl shirts just like last year. i fucking cant believe i am going back to washington tomorrow. leem has a new roomie named claudia who is from germany. she is so cool and neat and interesting. i talked to her about germany and how there are still some people living in east berlin who want the wall back up. i dont know very much about things outside of this small lauren bubble that i live in. she told me about cheap flights in europe and how they are cheaper than the trains. i drank wine and on my way outside for the cig break i ran into the screen door with my forehead. it was crazy. then i had a big dirty mark on my forehead that claudia told me about later when we came back inside. the cigs pack she had had a big huge thing on it that said, "smoking kills." it was great. and good. i have a paper journal now. it is just a notebook. ky drew all over it because he was drunk. then he drew all over his body. i stopped him when he got to his neck because i thought he wouldnt like that in the morning when he woke up. everyone needs to tell me what to do about if i should come back here ever. i feel like what if i did? fucking damn.

i will listen to my pod. i like calling it a listening pod.

it's funny when people are so nice to you when you come back from being gone. when you first met them they didn't want anything to do with you and were so fucking rude and bitches. i really hate mean people. i don't know if i can forgive them for that.

tomorrow i wont be drunk when i wake up again. that was sick feeling! sick!

lick it! i want to! i'm gonna one day. just watch.