disturbing dream
I had a very bad dream last night.
We have a maintenance guy here whom I like very much. I have always felt very comfortable around him, and felt comfortable with him around my children, which is unusual for me now. Last night I had a dream that I was talking to him outside, before he came in to fix something. I was thinking to myself and I think I verbalized to him, that level of comfort I had with him. When we came in side he started playing with Sophia. She was wearing what looked like bra and underpants, but she was wearing it as regular clothes. I immediately felt like he was touching her inappropriately. I didn't know how to say stop because I didn't know if it was because of the clothes she was wearing, or the way he was touching. I felt awful and I didn't say anything. I finally got Sophia out of the room by telling her to go do something. Then my manager (here at the house) Marty came up to check something. I talked to her outside about what had happened and how it made me felt. She defended Lawrence, but I could tell she was very disturbed by the notion he might have done something. She started crying. The whole time she is talking to me about my inspection, she was crying and I was feeling worse and worse for having made the accusation. Lawrence is confused as all get out. Marty starts threatening me (in subtle ways) to not say anything, or I wont pass inspection.
and I wake up
We have a maintenance guy here whom I like very much. I have always felt very comfortable around him, and felt comfortable with him around my children, which is unusual for me now. Last night I had a dream that I was talking to him outside, before he came in to fix something. I was thinking to myself and I think I verbalized to him, that level of comfort I had with him. When we came in side he started playing with Sophia. She was wearing what looked like bra and underpants, but she was wearing it as regular clothes. I immediately felt like he was touching her inappropriately. I didn't know how to say stop because I didn't know if it was because of the clothes she was wearing, or the way he was touching. I felt awful and I didn't say anything. I finally got Sophia out of the room by telling her to go do something. Then my manager (here at the house) Marty came up to check something. I talked to her outside about what had happened and how it made me felt. She defended Lawrence, but I could tell she was very disturbed by the notion he might have done something. She started crying. The whole time she is talking to me about my inspection, she was crying and I was feeling worse and worse for having made the accusation. Lawrence is confused as all get out. Marty starts threatening me (in subtle ways) to not say anything, or I wont pass inspection.
and I wake up