Insomnia
Insomnia
Thursday, 28 February 2008
[0225.0233]
Couldn't sleep. Maybe because I've had two glasses of wine tonight.
I attended a guided meditation today (by which I mean Wednesday, since I haven't slept). It was focused on meditation without preferences: accepting things as they are, being in the present, going on even if preferences aren't satisfied. I've tried to meditate before but mostly without success--I am usually too preoccupied with extraneous thoughts, too worried about doing things correctly. Today's session felt pretty good--got past some of those obstacles and was able to get through the half-hour session. I'm not sure it made a huge difference, and I'm not even quite sure what the objective is, but I think I'll keep doing it weekly, to the extent that my schedule will allow.
Of course, right now I've still got too much on my mind to go to sleep. Maybe also because I've turned my schedule a bit upside down since yesterday.
Spring break is almost here. Thank goodness. I have laundry to do, some errands to run around the city, dishes that I could help with, and of course reading to catch up on. My last break was over Christmas/New Year's--that seems so long ago--and the last break before that was last spring break. When I celebrated my 23rd birthday on a yacht in the Caribbean. I think it'll be nice to have empty space to myself. I'm tired.
Thursday, 28 February 2008
[0225.0233]
Couldn't sleep. Maybe because I've had two glasses of wine tonight.
I attended a guided meditation today (by which I mean Wednesday, since I haven't slept). It was focused on meditation without preferences: accepting things as they are, being in the present, going on even if preferences aren't satisfied. I've tried to meditate before but mostly without success--I am usually too preoccupied with extraneous thoughts, too worried about doing things correctly. Today's session felt pretty good--got past some of those obstacles and was able to get through the half-hour session. I'm not sure it made a huge difference, and I'm not even quite sure what the objective is, but I think I'll keep doing it weekly, to the extent that my schedule will allow.
Of course, right now I've still got too much on my mind to go to sleep. Maybe also because I've turned my schedule a bit upside down since yesterday.
Spring break is almost here. Thank goodness. I have laundry to do, some errands to run around the city, dishes that I could help with, and of course reading to catch up on. My last break was over Christmas/New Year's--that seems so long ago--and the last break before that was last spring break. When I celebrated my 23rd birthday on a yacht in the Caribbean. I think it'll be nice to have empty space to myself. I'm tired.