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I tried to do some GRE practice questions the other day. I'm fine with words, but the math questions were a joke. I can't even do them, not at all. I have no idea how to solve simple algebra questions anymore. I don't even know how to start. I'm going to have to study so hard, but I don't even really want to right now. I've just been sitting around my house cleaning for days. I am paralyzed by the future. I am so afraid of it. My daydreaming these days always turns into nightmares of saying goodbye to TM. Growing up is so hard! I don't even know what I want to study in grad school. What do I want to do with my life? Anthropology? Museum studies? And leaving Sarasota and New College. Being alone.
I've been spending all day in the kitchen. Mopping. Eradicating extras. I've put contact paper in the cupboards. I cleaned out the fridge today. I stay at my house and numb myself to the thousand things I need to be doing. I'm such a homebody, I wish that my house was a hangout house. No one is ever here, but I love being here. One day I will have a bed and breakfast and I can cook and clean and make money doing it, and people will always come to me.
I've been spending all day in the kitchen. Mopping. Eradicating extras. I've put contact paper in the cupboards. I cleaned out the fridge today. I stay at my house and numb myself to the thousand things I need to be doing. I'm such a homebody, I wish that my house was a hangout house. No one is ever here, but I love being here. One day I will have a bed and breakfast and I can cook and clean and make money doing it, and people will always come to me.