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procrastination of writing my paper has driven me to finally update.
basically everything fell apart in the past few weeks, and finally now I am beginning to see something resembling what is normal.
normal=serenity
Im totally stressed about getting into UTSA. Everyone is trying to keep my hopes up about it. It only makes me feel worse because I know that if I dont get in I will be dissapointing me and everyone else. Jake has been keeping me grounded by reminding me that I havent gotten in yet. I really need that because its true. I took my ACT and need a 20 on it for automatic acceptance which is pretty much the only way I am getting in. Not quite sure about how I feel about how I did on it. Really nervous about the results.
baby steps, order of operations (really need to keep them in mind)
1. Graduate, its pathetic that I have to consider this a challenge, but I put myself in this position and its up to me to make it happen
2. get in to college
3. finally be able to celebrate
speaking of celebrating
graduation party is June 3
okay so it has been a really long time so lets see if I can briefly sum up what has happened.
-quit DI to allow more time for school :(
-spring break
got grounded
had to go to a lame wedding
saw friends maybe 1 day
-high school drama
+++finally got to see dez <3<3<3
+few shows now and again
-quit caffeine (fuck that)
+brought back caffeine
-+quit smoking
+brought back smoking...occasionally
+easter break was really relaxing
+dyed hair like 5 billion times it is now black
-gauge starting to get infected ear lobe is really swollen eeep!
-phone is fucked so my temp number is 331 0090 until I get them to switch the old number to my new phone
and that brings me to today, grounded...kinda. supposed to go out last night, but as a classic move I FELL ASLEEP. I finished my color pencil drawing because I was bored. Supposed to be writing my paper. Really dont want to do it.....ugh.
in the mood for chinese and coffee........
basically everything fell apart in the past few weeks, and finally now I am beginning to see something resembling what is normal.
normal=serenity
Im totally stressed about getting into UTSA. Everyone is trying to keep my hopes up about it. It only makes me feel worse because I know that if I dont get in I will be dissapointing me and everyone else. Jake has been keeping me grounded by reminding me that I havent gotten in yet. I really need that because its true. I took my ACT and need a 20 on it for automatic acceptance which is pretty much the only way I am getting in. Not quite sure about how I feel about how I did on it. Really nervous about the results.
baby steps, order of operations (really need to keep them in mind)
1. Graduate, its pathetic that I have to consider this a challenge, but I put myself in this position and its up to me to make it happen
2. get in to college
3. finally be able to celebrate
speaking of celebrating
graduation party is June 3
okay so it has been a really long time so lets see if I can briefly sum up what has happened.
-quit DI to allow more time for school :(
-spring break
got grounded
had to go to a lame wedding
saw friends maybe 1 day
-high school drama
+++finally got to see dez <3<3<3
+few shows now and again
-quit caffeine (fuck that)
+brought back caffeine
-+quit smoking
+brought back smoking...occasionally
+easter break was really relaxing
+dyed hair like 5 billion times it is now black
-gauge starting to get infected ear lobe is really swollen eeep!
-phone is fucked so my temp number is 331 0090 until I get them to switch the old number to my new phone
and that brings me to today, grounded...kinda. supposed to go out last night, but as a classic move I FELL ASLEEP. I finished my color pencil drawing because I was bored. Supposed to be writing my paper. Really dont want to do it.....ugh.
in the mood for chinese and coffee........