I guess its time
finally I have something to write about.
Lets start on the topic of school. Well its not so bad. Im finally shaping up. Slowly but surely. I sure as hell didnt do it alone though.
Which leads me to friends.
I am so lucky to have the friends that I do have. This year has made me realize that. But............
...............
Somethings just cant be said in journals. I guess I just dont feel comfortable saying them. And as much as I love and trust my friends. Sometimes I dont know, I feel that I dont have someone to talk to that would be able to just listen instead of having to thrown in their opinions.
Christmas was hmm interesting. Usual. nothing to spectacular. I almost was disappointed in there not being school today. It weirds me out to say it but I miss having a set routine.
Im going crazy because I know I need to stop putting off college stuff. I just wish I could be done with it. I get stressed about even thinking about it. I need to start before its too late.
I need to get away for a few days. Just go somewhere like a secret place, where I can think and clear my head. I really missed my dad a lot over these past few weeks. Im starting to have trouble hiding it. It scares me when I think about him to the point that it makes me want to cry, I never cry. I think something is wrong right now. I just wish he was here with me. I visited his stone the other day. Just by myself, it was peaceful.
Lets start on the topic of school. Well its not so bad. Im finally shaping up. Slowly but surely. I sure as hell didnt do it alone though.
Which leads me to friends.
I am so lucky to have the friends that I do have. This year has made me realize that. But............
...............
Somethings just cant be said in journals. I guess I just dont feel comfortable saying them. And as much as I love and trust my friends. Sometimes I dont know, I feel that I dont have someone to talk to that would be able to just listen instead of having to thrown in their opinions.
Christmas was hmm interesting. Usual. nothing to spectacular. I almost was disappointed in there not being school today. It weirds me out to say it but I miss having a set routine.
Im going crazy because I know I need to stop putting off college stuff. I just wish I could be done with it. I get stressed about even thinking about it. I need to start before its too late.
I need to get away for a few days. Just go somewhere like a secret place, where I can think and clear my head. I really missed my dad a lot over these past few weeks. Im starting to have trouble hiding it. It scares me when I think about him to the point that it makes me want to cry, I never cry. I think something is wrong right now. I just wish he was here with me. I visited his stone the other day. Just by myself, it was peaceful.