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I feel cold. There are shivers running up and down my spine. My toes feel numb and every time I bend them I feel the pain of bits and needles prickling away at my feet so I stop doing that. I try to worm up, but I don’t have a blanket handy so I just sit there, thinking, trying to will my blood into my body. It seems like such an easy task-just do some jumping jacks or go and get a blanket-but I refuse to get up. As I sit in my chair, toes slowly turning blue, arms covered in goose-bumps, I try to think of something positive, something warm, but nothing comes to mind. As my back tenses up I do nothing to stop it. It starts to spontaneously spasm in short and quick attempts to warm my body, but I don’t think its working. The spasms stop as spontaneously as they had started and I continue sitting in my chair. A strong shiver makes a complete round through my body from legs down then back up to my arms and finally to my brain. The phone rings and I do not answer because that would mean that I have to move. I can feel my heart beating slowly and steadily, as if not to waste valuable energy on anything that isn’t absolutely necessary. I give up. I don’t think I will ever feel warmth again.