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last year on this day i was really excited. my parents were off at a doctors appointment for my dad and i was home alone. it was s saturday and it was my (now ex) boyfriends ring dance. i had been looking forward to it for quite some time. i had my dress a month early. so i woke up and i was really happy and i was about to jump in the shower and begin my day when i got a phone call from my mother. her words were "pack your shit we're leaving" at that moment i couldnt think. i was so pissed because i was supposed to see my boyfriend and have a good time and something fucked it up. i told her "no, ring dance is today." she said "katrina is heading for us." and after she said that i automatically thought that it was going to be like every other hurricane.. no big deal. we olny evactuate every once in a while. well i couldnt have been more wrong. i was in lake charles then we went to houston. im sitting in my aunts living room wtching this horrible thing on tv destroy my city. im listening to the idiot mayor bitch about one thing or another and im thinking to myself 'theyre not saying anything about destrehan..why arent they saying anything!? i want to know how my home is!' the phone lines were screwed so i couldnt find anyone i didnt have internet so i really couldnt find anyone. i was sooo worried about everything and everyone i had panic attacks left and right. i didnt know that on august 29th my life would change. and here i am sitting in texas now seeing the past year unfold in my brain. that boy is pretty much no longer in my life and i dont think ill ever be that calm about a hurricane again. right now (around the same time as last year) there is a hurricane heading this way again. by thursday , they said, it will be in the gulf. i find my self falling to my knees and praying to god to spare my city, my friends, my family, my home. i hope he hears me.