whew.
so last night was probably one of the hardest nights i have had in a really long time. Like i could not sleep, and it killed me just thinking about how one second everything can be great, and then the next, all hell has happened.Let's just say my brother is a dumbass and fucked up his life reall bad. I knew one day, something like this was going to happen. But just thinking of what he was going through last night, alone, in a cellar, at a real jail, going to be charged as a real adult not a minor, it just sucks. And everytime i think about it i was to breakdown and cry and cry and cry because he is like my bestfriend, and when he hurts, i hurt, i guess its a close sibling relationship. Well and then to top it off, when i really needed to talk to somebody, meaning my BEST FRIEND, she didnt answer the phone, and i called a hole lot. That's fucked up, and she could have called me back. BUT i had louis there to talk to. I always do. That's what makes him one of my best friends. Well Talent Farm tonight. I hope i can go. I havnt asked, and i dont want my brothers nonsense to get in that way of my plans that have BEEN PLANNED for weeks. I guess that is it. I am trying not to be bummed out, but i am, and it stinks. Hmph, well i guess that is it.
Later loves<3
Later loves<3