whoa.
I'm currently stuck in bed with an ear infection and I can't sleep so I thought lj would be something good to do. Since I can't stop thinking about college and the VERY short months ahead of me. It honestly feels like just yesterday I was a freshman in high school. Now I'm applying to colleges that will be so far away from the people I never thought I could leave.
I still don't know if I'll honestly make it that far.
I hate this part about life. The part not knowing if you are making the right decision because everything just feels so right, right now. It doesn't feel as if it could get better.
Secondly. I'm turning eighteen in like eight days. I've waited my whole life to be eighteen and now I wish I was turning five. I am ready to be done with high school because its so boring, but I want to re-live it. I think it was a pretty great experience.
There is kind of a lot of reasons I'm not ready for high school to be over. I want to go to MI Tech really bad, but none of my friends are going way up there. Not to mention that my love of my life may also not be going there. How am I going to handle being alone? Probably not very good. :/ Once graduation rolls around I'll only have like 2 months to be with my best friends and Jake. I've seen how people lose touch with their once 'life lines' and I really don't want that to be me. I hate change. I wish I liked it because then I wouldn't worry so much.
The upside to life right now is pretty damn great. (other than being sick and GM about to die along with the rest of our country..)(oh and minus english, too) I love Jake and I've been hanging out with all my BFFS lately. ALOT. :) I'm almost legal to gamble (I probably won't), go clubbin' :) (probably will), and get a tattoo (probably will). :)
I really do want life to be exciting right now. Maybe a BIG change is what I need...
I'll get back to you on that though.
<3 Kry
P.S. I got a B on that pre calc exam from my last entry. :)
I still don't know if I'll honestly make it that far.
I hate this part about life. The part not knowing if you are making the right decision because everything just feels so right, right now. It doesn't feel as if it could get better.
Secondly. I'm turning eighteen in like eight days. I've waited my whole life to be eighteen and now I wish I was turning five. I am ready to be done with high school because its so boring, but I want to re-live it. I think it was a pretty great experience.
There is kind of a lot of reasons I'm not ready for high school to be over. I want to go to MI Tech really bad, but none of my friends are going way up there. Not to mention that my love of my life may also not be going there. How am I going to handle being alone? Probably not very good. :/ Once graduation rolls around I'll only have like 2 months to be with my best friends and Jake. I've seen how people lose touch with their once 'life lines' and I really don't want that to be me. I hate change. I wish I liked it because then I wouldn't worry so much.
The upside to life right now is pretty damn great. (other than being sick and GM about to die along with the rest of our country..)(oh and minus english, too) I love Jake and I've been hanging out with all my BFFS lately. ALOT. :) I'm almost legal to gamble (I probably won't), go clubbin' :) (probably will), and get a tattoo (probably will). :)
I really do want life to be exciting right now. Maybe a BIG change is what I need...
I'll get back to you on that though.
<3 Kry
P.S. I got a B on that pre calc exam from my last entry. :)