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Hey there. Well today I did -nothing-. The brats were home because of the weather, it was SOOO cold, like -10. I was talking to my friend, Don, and I accidently slipped in telling him about Tom and I. We started talking about it and it made me really upset, like I did something wrong when I know I didn't. I felt really dirty..soo... I cut. It made me feel better at first, then I realized what the fuck am I doing. Luckily, it was smallish and not noticeable. I also threw up, intentionally. I do this shit occasionally. I'm so angry with myself. I mean, I have control over this shit and I just give into it. I just need to say NO SYDNEY, you can't. Tomorrow I'm going to have a FUN day with Josh.
Ha, right now I'm looking at shoes that I want SO SO SO SOOOOOO bad. Maybe Tom will buy them for me.. hmm gotta beg him. lol they're Manolo Blahnik Rose Crisscross Alligator Slide. HAHA, I love Manolo Blahnik. I have lots. I also want this kick ass watch, it's also alligator, lol i'm definatly not sparing the poor alligators, but I LOVE THIS WATCH. 1.72 carats of diamonds. lol haha insane. I want it! I have to be really nice to Tom. I want some more shoes too.. hehehe
anways ttyl, -sydney-