Benched
In the end
I was the one who cried.
I never once shed a tear on the outside
But inside I was crying.
I cried tears of fire and pain.
Brimstone and fear.
Fear for my own conscience
Fear for my future...
Fear for us...
Because I always knew the future was us...
Maybe not the near future
But nevertheless the future.
I knew that in the end we would call on each other and all arms would be opened.
But
I knew I would have to wait.
I had to wait because the 16 year old in you wanted to be free and to have fun
And the 25 year old in me said do you and when you're ready for life call my number.
I fought through months of jealousy and rage at the girls who were in the same position I had once been
And when I finally tried to leave you always found ways to bring me back in
And when I came back it always went the same way
And then the day came when I said I cant stand the wait
And on that day I found somebody who realized what i had in me
Someone who cared enough to make me theirs
Make me smile
Make me cry
Make me feel loved
You were now playing my game
So I thought
The ball was in my court
So I thought
I finally got what I wanted all along from you in the form of another being
The whole time I played this game I thought of the other life I once had
The other life that never bloomed because of your childishness
But I couldn't be mad
I tried not to fret because I knew
you still had my number.
But now here it is
Many moons have passed
Many suns have set
And when your opportunity was the greatest you let it pass.
And yet I still remembered...you still have my number.
Unfortunately I see that our bond was not what I thought
Because even the good Dr. couldn't foretell this fate.
Our love could be broken in the form chocolate kisses and 4 by 6 chocolate squares.
Maybe it was me
Maybe it was her
Maybe it was your way of letting me know this is still your game...
Either way it goes...
I've lost...
I was the one who cried.
I never once shed a tear on the outside
But inside I was crying.
I cried tears of fire and pain.
Brimstone and fear.
Fear for my own conscience
Fear for my future...
Fear for us...
Because I always knew the future was us...
Maybe not the near future
But nevertheless the future.
I knew that in the end we would call on each other and all arms would be opened.
But
I knew I would have to wait.
I had to wait because the 16 year old in you wanted to be free and to have fun
And the 25 year old in me said do you and when you're ready for life call my number.
I fought through months of jealousy and rage at the girls who were in the same position I had once been
And when I finally tried to leave you always found ways to bring me back in
And when I came back it always went the same way
And then the day came when I said I cant stand the wait
And on that day I found somebody who realized what i had in me
Someone who cared enough to make me theirs
Make me smile
Make me cry
Make me feel loved
You were now playing my game
So I thought
The ball was in my court
So I thought
I finally got what I wanted all along from you in the form of another being
The whole time I played this game I thought of the other life I once had
The other life that never bloomed because of your childishness
But I couldn't be mad
I tried not to fret because I knew
you still had my number.
But now here it is
Many moons have passed
Many suns have set
And when your opportunity was the greatest you let it pass.
And yet I still remembered...you still have my number.
Unfortunately I see that our bond was not what I thought
Because even the good Dr. couldn't foretell this fate.
Our love could be broken in the form chocolate kisses and 4 by 6 chocolate squares.
Maybe it was me
Maybe it was her
Maybe it was your way of letting me know this is still your game...
Either way it goes...
I've lost...