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I am still sick, but have survived the weekend. I have recently found my stash of Halls throat lozenges, and they are the shiiieeet! My throat is so dry and its such a pain cause I have to *constantly* drink water just to not be in pain. But enough bickering about that, time to bicker onto other things :)
This weekend wasnt quite as busy at work as I thought it would be. Thank god today I got to come home earlier than I was supposed to..Mother's day was steady but definatly not what I would call busy. I made 14% in tips, so a little better than what I normally do on weekend nights. Graduation is this Friday, and it will defiantly be a lot busier. And it will be 2 nights before my birthday, so I can earn money just in time for it to be wasted appropriatly at some bar (location undecided for the moment!!)
I came home today and finished watching Lemony Snickets Series of Unfortunate Events.........wow I love that movie! Everything about it...the cinematography, the wardrobes, the storyline..I hope there will be another one. Thanks Tara for letting me borrow it!!
hummmmmm what else. Well this is kinda personal business and I dont know who all reads this, but I will write about it anyway, cause its my journal and I have the right to. If you have a problem with what I'm saying, say it to me. But....... I am having a lot of stress about what to do this summer with Alaska. And the stress is not about me, but about John going. John and his family are super-tight. They always have dinner together on Sundays, and they have been going to Sarasota each summer for quite some time. This summer, it turns out his mom's family from Colombia (who have never been to the US) are coming up to the beach with them. I should first address that John made the decision to go to Alaska...I did not force him too or give him any kind of ultimatum. We have been together for almost 2 years and I know we could be strong enough for a summer apart. However, John made the decision to go along with me, which made me very happy.
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But this was also when we thought we could go to Alaska *and* fly down for a couple days to at least be at the beach for a short time. After looking at flight options, this has become inevitable that it simply wont happen. I have talked to John to make sure he still wants to go to Alaska, but it has escalated into such trouble. I feel like if he thinks his place is at home with his family this summer, it should be that way. But he thinks I am all of a sudden trying to convince him not to go, which is so not the case. And he is certain we could not handle 2 months apart, which I think doesnt say much about how strong a relationship we have now. I am so behind in school that come this fall, I need to do focuse 110% into school, summers included. This summer I feel is like a last opportunity to do something I've always wanted---not that I have always wanted to go to Alaska, but I have always wanted to work someplace far off, someplace different than the southeast that I'm used to. But now I have written too much, and there is just so much more to it that I dont feel like writing, because I like I say I dont know who reads this and I dont want anyone to get under any sort of wrong impression............
This weekend wasnt quite as busy at work as I thought it would be. Thank god today I got to come home earlier than I was supposed to..Mother's day was steady but definatly not what I would call busy. I made 14% in tips, so a little better than what I normally do on weekend nights. Graduation is this Friday, and it will defiantly be a lot busier. And it will be 2 nights before my birthday, so I can earn money just in time for it to be wasted appropriatly at some bar (location undecided for the moment!!)
I came home today and finished watching Lemony Snickets Series of Unfortunate Events.........wow I love that movie! Everything about it...the cinematography, the wardrobes, the storyline..I hope there will be another one. Thanks Tara for letting me borrow it!!
hummmmmm what else. Well this is kinda personal business and I dont know who all reads this, but I will write about it anyway, cause its my journal and I have the right to. If you have a problem with what I'm saying, say it to me. But....... I am having a lot of stress about what to do this summer with Alaska. And the stress is not about me, but about John going. John and his family are super-tight. They always have dinner together on Sundays, and they have been going to Sarasota each summer for quite some time. This summer, it turns out his mom's family from Colombia (who have never been to the US) are coming up to the beach with them. I should first address that John made the decision to go to Alaska...I did not force him too or give him any kind of ultimatum. We have been together for almost 2 years and I know we could be strong enough for a summer apart. However, John made the decision to go along with me, which made me very happy.
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But this was also when we thought we could go to Alaska *and* fly down for a couple days to at least be at the beach for a short time. After looking at flight options, this has become inevitable that it simply wont happen. I have talked to John to make sure he still wants to go to Alaska, but it has escalated into such trouble. I feel like if he thinks his place is at home with his family this summer, it should be that way. But he thinks I am all of a sudden trying to convince him not to go, which is so not the case. And he is certain we could not handle 2 months apart, which I think doesnt say much about how strong a relationship we have now. I am so behind in school that come this fall, I need to do focuse 110% into school, summers included. This summer I feel is like a last opportunity to do something I've always wanted---not that I have always wanted to go to Alaska, but I have always wanted to work someplace far off, someplace different than the southeast that I'm used to. But now I have written too much, and there is just so much more to it that I dont feel like writing, because I like I say I dont know who reads this and I dont want anyone to get under any sort of wrong impression............