hi everyone!
oh my goodness it's been absolutely ages since i last wrote! i'm so sorry darlings, things have just been so chaotic i don't even know where to start.
first off, i have left my beloved shell beach. i moved home in late january, just in time for john's birthday, to my mother's house in sacramento. i know that a transplant from gorgeous beaches and endless summer days to smoggy sac-town doesn't really seem like the ideal move, but it was what was right for me at the time, and now that i've been here for awhile i am all the more certain it was the right thing to do. i was quickly running out of money, my father wasn't in the best of health, and i missed my boyfriend and my family more than i could bear.
when i got home it was finally revealed to me just how sick daddy was. they had been keeping certain details private from me under the opinion that knowing and not being able to act upon anything would just bring me unneeded stress. if i try really hard i can kind of understand where they were coming from with that, but i still felt i deserved to know. anyway, he was at kaiser for two agonizing weeks. he had an infection in the cathater they used for his dilasis, and he was on all sort of meds and hooked up to two or three machines at a time. i was there all day almost everyday and i now have a whole new world of respect for hospital workers. i kept having to leave the room. i was bursting into tears every thirty minutes. it was one of the most trying experiences of my life. he's doing much better now. things are still moving forward for the kidney transplant, with my uncle being his donor. he managed to make it to my cousin's wedding in mid-feburary without too much exhaustion. we're hoping for the surgery sometime in the next few months.
other than that things have been pretty up here. you canot imagine how boring it is to not work or go to school or anything at all. i just now got a job as a server at a local golf course. the jobs pretty similar to the cafe in shell so i'm sure i'll be happy there. maybe once things get settled i'll get another job too, we'll see. i'm trying to save as much money as i can so john and i can move to portland in the fall. PSU and all that.
anyway, this feel incredibly awkward for some reason....i'd post pictures but i lost my usb cable in the move and those things cost a fortune to replace. i'll dig one up eventually.
love you all - m
first off, i have left my beloved shell beach. i moved home in late january, just in time for john's birthday, to my mother's house in sacramento. i know that a transplant from gorgeous beaches and endless summer days to smoggy sac-town doesn't really seem like the ideal move, but it was what was right for me at the time, and now that i've been here for awhile i am all the more certain it was the right thing to do. i was quickly running out of money, my father wasn't in the best of health, and i missed my boyfriend and my family more than i could bear.
when i got home it was finally revealed to me just how sick daddy was. they had been keeping certain details private from me under the opinion that knowing and not being able to act upon anything would just bring me unneeded stress. if i try really hard i can kind of understand where they were coming from with that, but i still felt i deserved to know. anyway, he was at kaiser for two agonizing weeks. he had an infection in the cathater they used for his dilasis, and he was on all sort of meds and hooked up to two or three machines at a time. i was there all day almost everyday and i now have a whole new world of respect for hospital workers. i kept having to leave the room. i was bursting into tears every thirty minutes. it was one of the most trying experiences of my life. he's doing much better now. things are still moving forward for the kidney transplant, with my uncle being his donor. he managed to make it to my cousin's wedding in mid-feburary without too much exhaustion. we're hoping for the surgery sometime in the next few months.
other than that things have been pretty up here. you canot imagine how boring it is to not work or go to school or anything at all. i just now got a job as a server at a local golf course. the jobs pretty similar to the cafe in shell so i'm sure i'll be happy there. maybe once things get settled i'll get another job too, we'll see. i'm trying to save as much money as i can so john and i can move to portland in the fall. PSU and all that.
anyway, this feel incredibly awkward for some reason....i'd post pictures but i lost my usb cable in the move and those things cost a fortune to replace. i'll dig one up eventually.
love you all - m