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Today is the day pre-registration is supposed to start for spring semester at Amherst. Soooooo I've spent the usual 180000 hours trying to figure out what to take.
I think I need to learn to let go.
Like really.
Or maybe not. Maybe the fact that I'm holding onto this stuff means it matters, and I shouldn't be pushing it away. But that thought is a little too hard, and I don't know... I'm not ready to have that conversation with myself.
But I guess I should just confess.
The reality is, I love biology, but sometimes I wish I could spend my life trying to save the world. Or at least be an angry political/feminist academic (I'll be that anyway, but here I mean get a PhD in that).
I think that side starts to win when I think about having to take physics 17. And that makes me laugh a little, when it doesn't make me want to vomit.
I think I need to learn to let go.
Like really.
Or maybe not. Maybe the fact that I'm holding onto this stuff means it matters, and I shouldn't be pushing it away. But that thought is a little too hard, and I don't know... I'm not ready to have that conversation with myself.
But I guess I should just confess.
The reality is, I love biology, but sometimes I wish I could spend my life trying to save the world. Or at least be an angry political/feminist academic (I'll be that anyway, but here I mean get a PhD in that).
I think that side starts to win when I think about having to take physics 17. And that makes me laugh a little, when it doesn't make me want to vomit.