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I leave for Amherst in 11 hours or so. I cannot wait. I'm so ready to be back there. And in a couple of months, I'll be ready to come back here again. I love how that works. I'm not, however, ready for the cold. 14 is the high tomorrow and that makes me want to cry.
This has been an incredible break, in a lot of ways. I've managed to take control of my life in ways that I've wanted to be able to do for years. I feel like I've settled a lot of things- with myself and with other people- that needed settling. I've fixed my expectations and rethought a lot of things, and I think I'll be happier for that. It's been messy, but overall, it's probably been good for me. (look! cryptic-ness... and no one knows what all of it means, so don't make assumptions...)
Megs and I went back to SJS today. Between the construction and the retirement announcements, it seems that in a year or two, we won't know the place at all. Literally in two years almost everyone and everything we knew at SJS will be gone. Scary thought.
But oh well. Change happens, life goes on. I just can't imagine an SJS with no Dr. Cook. Or no Mrs. Kagi.
Also, I'm kind of worried. That I've finally done it. Overcommitted myself, I mean. This could be the semester that finally breaks me. Let's all hope it doesn't and I make it through alive. At least Em will be there to help me get it all done (and to make me feel better when I don't be reminding me of how much worse she is about it!). But regardless, even if it breaks me, it will be fun. Not as fun as Miami, maybe. But close ;)
I miss all of you. This week at home by myself has been weird.
Goals for next semester:
Keep in better touch with people
Get myself off campus (to NYC or Boston or somewhere) at least once
No death
Don't spend too much money (oops, that might conflict with the no death one...)
Watch more movies
Don't get overwhelmed
No Bs
This has been an incredible break, in a lot of ways. I've managed to take control of my life in ways that I've wanted to be able to do for years. I feel like I've settled a lot of things- with myself and with other people- that needed settling. I've fixed my expectations and rethought a lot of things, and I think I'll be happier for that. It's been messy, but overall, it's probably been good for me. (look! cryptic-ness... and no one knows what all of it means, so don't make assumptions...)
Megs and I went back to SJS today. Between the construction and the retirement announcements, it seems that in a year or two, we won't know the place at all. Literally in two years almost everyone and everything we knew at SJS will be gone. Scary thought.
But oh well. Change happens, life goes on. I just can't imagine an SJS with no Dr. Cook. Or no Mrs. Kagi.
Also, I'm kind of worried. That I've finally done it. Overcommitted myself, I mean. This could be the semester that finally breaks me. Let's all hope it doesn't and I make it through alive. At least Em will be there to help me get it all done (and to make me feel better when I don't be reminding me of how much worse she is about it!). But regardless, even if it breaks me, it will be fun. Not as fun as Miami, maybe. But close ;)
I miss all of you. This week at home by myself has been weird.
Goals for next semester:
Keep in better touch with people
Get myself off campus (to NYC or Boston or somewhere) at least once
No death
Don't spend too much money (oops, that might conflict with the no death one...)
Watch more movies
Don't get overwhelmed
No Bs