LJ Idol Week 1- Black Rainbow
CW: Content warning...all of em, especially suicide and weapons grade self pity. But no kitten rape.
Sure a black rainbow...does that mean Diana Ross over Judy Garland, not really fair, it's a grown ass woman against a starved little girl.
Oh wait here is the definition something damn near unattainable, like, I dunno...my life back. So I lost my mom and my best friend, my job and damn near any contact. But I got something better. 24/7 tinnitus, constant suicidal thoughts and a ringing in my head that makes me cry. Since the pandemic started I have lost teeth and the ability to read anything more complex than a Facebook post.
I try not to drink because it is killing me, and if I succeed I get to suffer and try again tomorrow either way I am unlikely to see anyone but my loyal doglas who deserve much better.
No job, lost several prominent teeth, don't drive.....
The tinnitus is the worst part, it is like a suicide machine....like Nike it says, just do it. But someone would find me, the way I found my brother. So I dunno fam, do we dance this dance one more time. I have no answers (but don't worry Fluffy, you are safe, I said no kitten rape). Tune in next time when I talk about why Whataburger is truly superior to In-and-Out....no not that kind of in and out...pervs.