i'm really done. really.
i'm done
trying to figure out how i'm feeling
trying to find the perfect song
feeling lonely when i choose it
feeling jealous of what i don't have
pretending to be what you think i should be
pretending to be what i think i should be
sitting quietly on the sidelines
sitting and waiting
looking for answers
looking for the questions i'm not asking
lieing to myself
lieing to you
smoking and drinking to feel a certain way, attempting to write what i can't explain, trying to keep up with a ridiculous schedule, caring how you think of me, not getting enough sleep, not doing things for me, not truly caring about anything, feeling unloved when i know that's not true, feeling unloved when i think i deserve love, being unhappy, being just an option, not being taken seriously, not being listened to...
i'm done with it all. really.
trying to figure out how i'm feeling
trying to find the perfect song
feeling lonely when i choose it
feeling jealous of what i don't have
pretending to be what you think i should be
pretending to be what i think i should be
sitting quietly on the sidelines
sitting and waiting
looking for answers
looking for the questions i'm not asking
lieing to myself
lieing to you
smoking and drinking to feel a certain way, attempting to write what i can't explain, trying to keep up with a ridiculous schedule, caring how you think of me, not getting enough sleep, not doing things for me, not truly caring about anything, feeling unloved when i know that's not true, feeling unloved when i think i deserve love, being unhappy, being just an option, not being taken seriously, not being listened to...
i'm done with it all. really.