i'm so sick of being unhappy....
i don't want to be with my boyfriend anymore. ever since he left me a message calling me a cunt because, get this, he thought i hung up on him unpurpose. great justification. that was about 2 months ago. since then, he's proceeded to scream in my face every little argument we have-spraying me with spit like an animal. every time i ask for his advice/opinion/help with something, it's: I DON'T NEED THIS RIGHT NOW!YOUR FUCKING UP MY STUDY OF MY SCRIPTS! THIS IS THE LAST THING I NEED TO WORRY ABOUT! YOUR GONNA MAKE ME DO BAD IN MY AUDITION! I WAS HAVING A GOOD DAY-YOUR RUINING IT! I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS RIGHT NOW!
starting to get it? yeah, it's all about him.for the past 3 months, he has a friend that is trying to get him to break up with me. his "friend" tells him that he should just "dump that stupid chick already","you can do alot better than her" and "what? you don't think the left wall is a little blown out?" meaning that my pussy is so over fucked that it's gonna have a blow out like an old tire. by the way, this guy is a lunatic, i'm nothing even close to what he's making me out to be. instead of my bf telling him to shut the fuck up cause this is his girlfriend he's talking about, he just disagrees with him- tells him that he dosn't think i'm like that. is it just me, or is my boyfriend a pussy who's scared of what this guy is gonna think of him? if someone said that about him to me, i'd tell them to take it elsewhere cause i don't want to hear their disrespect. this is what our current fight is about. i don't really want to be with someone who i have spent 6 months of my life living in a different state from and being supportive of an acting career- that has yet to show any results- repays me with this kind of disloyalty. i think this is just the icing on the cake. my boyfriend would never cheat on me, and that's always what i used to think was the most important thing. i'm starting to question my standards.....
starting to get it? yeah, it's all about him.for the past 3 months, he has a friend that is trying to get him to break up with me. his "friend" tells him that he should just "dump that stupid chick already","you can do alot better than her" and "what? you don't think the left wall is a little blown out?" meaning that my pussy is so over fucked that it's gonna have a blow out like an old tire. by the way, this guy is a lunatic, i'm nothing even close to what he's making me out to be. instead of my bf telling him to shut the fuck up cause this is his girlfriend he's talking about, he just disagrees with him- tells him that he dosn't think i'm like that. is it just me, or is my boyfriend a pussy who's scared of what this guy is gonna think of him? if someone said that about him to me, i'd tell them to take it elsewhere cause i don't want to hear their disrespect. this is what our current fight is about. i don't really want to be with someone who i have spent 6 months of my life living in a different state from and being supportive of an acting career- that has yet to show any results- repays me with this kind of disloyalty. i think this is just the icing on the cake. my boyfriend would never cheat on me, and that's always what i used to think was the most important thing. i'm starting to question my standards.....