When Roses Wither (1/?)
Title: When Roses Wither (1/?)
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun x girl!Sungmin
Genre: Angst, Romance
Warning(s): swearing, epic failure
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 3,041
Summary: Sungmin has always felt alone; unfavored, unwanted, unloved. She has always felt out of place; family, school, even the public. She's never felt special before. She doesn''t look forward to anything in life. But this all changes when she sees him, Cho Kyuhyun; he makes her feel even worse. He's a popular, handsome boy. She's an average, plain-looking girl. How could he ever fall in love with her? Based on my life a true "story".
Checking over my reports one last time, I click the print button in the word processor and put a piece of paper in my printer. While waiting for it to print, I look up at my clock. 6:18 AM. About 2 hours to go before I have to leave for school.
Since it's the first day of school, classes don't start until 9:30, but I want to get there early so I can figure out where my friends are. It's always awkward whenever you step into a room and everyone's already there, in their own little social cliques, and they stare at you, like you're an outcast or something. It's a very unnerving feeling.
Still seated in my mini computer stool, I turn to my left and see my reflection in a giant mirror. I look at my hair. It seems to be getting a little too long now. It's reaching a few inches past my shoulder. Oh well, I suppose I'll get it cut later or something.
I go to check on my mom, and I find that she's sleeping on the sofa. I hope she's not too angry about how I stayed up all night.
Rule #1:
Never go to sleep on the night before school starts.
There's a big chance you could oversleep, and end up being late on the first day of school, which is when the awkwardness would commence.
I change out of my pajamas, and into a blue shirt and black jeans. I always wear black jeans. They draw attention away from my... not-so-skinny legs. I have to admit, I'm not as skinny as those other toothpick-thin Asian girls. I don't know why, but I blame it on my family genes.
I move the door that's blocking the only full-length mirror in the apartment. When I stand in front of it, my eyes automatically flicker to my cursed legs. I sigh and decide I look fine, walking back to the mirror next to my computer. As I look at my face, I wonder if I should put any make-up on. My mother tells me I should, since it's the start of a new year, which means I can have a fresh start. I choose to leave my face the way it is; it's too much of a hassle to put on make-up, or at least, to me it is.
I look at the clock again. 6:32 AM. I still have about an hour and a half before I need to go. Not knowing how to pass the time, I decide to "fret" over the way I look until it's time to go.
~
I leave the apartment, making sure to lock the door behind me. Then I go down the stairs and leave the entire building.
I take out a piece of paper that has the directions to school. I check it to make sure I'm on the right path. I don't want to get lost.
Rule #2:
If you're starting the school year at a new school, ALWAYS figure out how you're going to get there from home, BEFORE the school year actually starts.
If you get lost on your way to school, you're going to be late for school, and like in Rule #1, it's going to be really awkward when you get to school and have no idea where to go.
Ironically, I never figured out how I was going to get to school, so now I might be late. I visited the school last summer with my best friend, Sunkyu, but that doesn't really count. We had to get our pictures taken for our new identification cards for the school (we're both going to the same school this year).
When I get to the train station, I see that the train has just left. FML. This always seems to happen to me. Oh well. I swipe my card and push past the turnstile. While waiting for the next train to come, I re-check the directions to school. It says that I need to transfer to another train at a certain stop. Damn. I already suck at navigation, and now I need to transfer trains? I can tell that this is a sure sign that I'm probably going to be late for school.
The train that I'm waiting for arrives, and I see that there is a giant crowd inside. Great. Just great.
The doors open, and I try to squeeze inside. I suck in my breath, in hopes of taking up less space, and the doors close, shutting me off from the outside world.
~
When I finally get out of the train, I am relieved that I am safe and sound. I dislike taking the train because I'm scared that something bad will happen, like a crazy person harassing other people, or a bomb exploding, etc.
I read the signs around me, looking for the one that will lead me to the train I need to transfer to. No dice.
I decide to walk all the way to one end of the hallway, and I still don't see anything helpful. I start to go to the other side of the hallway, passing a few other students along the way. Like usual, they gawk at me and give me a look of disgust. Sigh.
When I reach the other side, I curse under my breath when I see that there's no sign there either. Shit, now I'm actually going to be late if I don't find the stairway that will lead me to the right train.
About 15 minutes later, I get tired of walking around the entire hallway and looking like an idiot, so I decide to ask somebody for directions.
The first person I ask, a young and somewhat pretty girl who is probably the same age as me, blows me off. I mean, she actually stopped and scoffed at me, IN MY FACE, before she strutted off, like a proud chicken. Really? Was that even necessary? Ugh, this is why I dislike pretty girls. It's not that I hate them because they're pretty; I hate them because they're usually really snobby when they're pretty. Most of the time, pretty = popular and pampered. I'm not saying that ALL pretty girls are stuck up, but a lot of them are. But then again, if I was a pretty girl (which I'm definitely not, hah), I bet I'd be the most arrogant one of all.
The next person I ask is a kind looking woman, and thank goodness, tells me the correct staircase to take. I thank her, and I ascend the flight of stairs.
On the way up, my phone starts to ring. I take it out of my jacket pocket to see who's calling. It's Sunkyu. That's weird. Why is she calling me now?
I answer the call, "Hello?"
"Sungmin!" a voice on the other line squeaks out. It's definitely Sunkyu.
"Yeah, it's me. What's wrong?" I ask.
"Where are you? There's like, half an hour before school actually starts!" she semi-whines.
"What?! HALF AN HOUR?!" I check the time on my phone, and I see that it's now 9:03. So I've wasted about a half an hour being lost?!
"I said 'half an hour', didn't I? And you better hurry up. The gym is really crowded now."
"Oh, alright. I'm almost there now. I'll be there before 9:30."
"Good. You better not be late!" And with that, she hangs up.
I put my phone back in my pocket, and I when I get to the top of the staircase, I let out a breath of relief when I find out that the train hasn't arrived yet. However, I see that there are a bunch of other teenagers waiting for the train as well. I try to walk past them without making any eye contact, but I can feel their eyes bore into my back, sending me death glares.
I survive the walk of despair, and luckily, the train appears. It slows down to an eventual stop, and the doors open. When I get on, I am happy that I am alone; that I am free from the people in the world for a few minutes.
~
I feel a pang of distress when I realize that I have to get off at the next stop. I suck it up, and I exit the train when it reaches my destination.
A hoard of students flock from the train towards the exit. In their busy attempts to get to school on time, they don't notice me, and thus, don't bother me.
I check the time on my phone. 9:10. There's about 20 minutes before school starts. I try to rush over to my school, or at least, where I think it is. Fortunately, I find the school in the nick of time, and with about 8 minutes left to spare.
Just as I enter the school, Sunkyu pops out of nowhere and tackles me, nearly sending me to the floor. Good thing she's smaller than me, or else I probably would've fallen.
"Where were you?! Why did you take so long to get here?!" she practically screams at me.
"Woah, woah. Calm down. I just got, um, a little lost on the way to school...?" I admit, feeling a bit embarrassed.
"You got lost?" she gives me a look of disbelief.
I try to give her a plausible excuse, "Well, you know me! I'm terrible with directions!"
She nods her head, as if she was completely agreeing with me. "Oh, my bad, I forgot."
"Hey! You're not supposed to agree with me!" I grin at her.
She laughs, "Hee hee~"
I playfully slap her arm, and we both laugh at each other. It's times like this that I appreciate that I have a good friend like Lee Sunkyu.
We met 2 years ago when we were in middle school. We were both in the same Honors class, and we sat next to each other every day in math class for the 2nd year we were together. At first, we were kind of distant, since I had been in Honors ever since I started middle school, and she had just recently transferred from the lowest academic class. However, eventually we bonded in class, and we became pretty good friends. She was pretty excited when she found out that we were going to the same high school.
Sunkyu drags me into the gym, and I gasp when I see the vast amount of people inside. Given, the gym is actually pretty small itself, but there are about 100+ people in the room.
I find some other classmates from middle school, and we sit down with them. Of course, the only thing we can talk about is our summer assignments, and like I anticipated, everybody did the assignment the night before school started. Being the biggest procrastinator known to mankind, I am the one who started and finished the latest.
Suddenly, the doors swing open, and a bunch of more students enter the room. Argh, now it's even more uncomfortable and crowded than before. Then this one girl enters the room, and she practically flings her arms around to get the attention of all the people in the room.
When everyone's finally looking at her, she introduces herself, "Hi everybody! My name's Seohyun!" and she waves her hand all around.
I don't think anybody has really paid any attention to her because nobody seems to care. She walks away in a huff, upset with the terrible response she received. When I turn back to my group of friends, Sunkyu gives me a confused look. For a moment, I fear it's about me, but then I realize that it's about Seohyun.
Sunkyu stays quiet for a few minutes, before writing off Seohyun as a weirdo in her mind.
Then this woman loudly yells "Excuse me!" to get our attention. The room turns silent, and the woman announces that for the first three periods, we will spend time with our "advisories", before going to lunch.
In this high school, they implement the use of advisories, which are classes that we stay with for the entire high school experience. Every year, our classes change, and we will meet new people, but advisory is the only class in which the people stay the same. I'm not exactly sure what the use of advisory is for, but apparently it's a pass/fail class that supposedly deviates from academics. So it's probably a class where we don't have to worry about grades, and that we're supposed to focus on bonding with each other or something. Pfft. As if. I bet I'm going to be an outcast again.
A bunch of teachers gather together, and one by one, they call out the students that are in their advisory. Sunkyu frowns when her name gets called and she has to depart from me. However, when my name doesn't get called for a long time, I start to worry. Eventually, there's just one teacher left, and I hope that I'm in her advisory. Fortunately enough, she calls my name, and I run over to her, practically wanting to give her a big hug. But when I see the students that are going to be in my advisory, I freeze. It's him. Cho Kyuhyun. The guy I've practically longed for my whole life. No, really, I mean it. My whole life.
We met when we were both 4 years old. Since my mother is religious, when I was a young girl, she would drag me over to her bible study group every week. At first, I dreaded going because it was just sooo boring and I kept falling asleep. But then Kyuhyun came along, and after that, I was the one who rushed my mother along to the study group. As a little girl, I was not very knowledge about things, so I was often bold and outspoken; someone who did whatever she wanted to do. This resulted in me chasing after Kyuhyun and trying to be next to him all the time. No doubt, this annoyed him to great lengths, and he started to flee whenever he saw me. Sure, it broke my small and fragile heart whenever he fled, but it also made me even more determined to be by his side.
Eventually, my mother had to leave the bible study group due to private family matters, and I was devastated when I found out I would never see Kyuhyun again. Luckily, after moping around about his absence in all of elementary school, we met again 5 years later, in middle school. Even though many years had gone by, he was still the only one in my heart. Sadly enough, I found out that I didn't leave any impression on him whatsoever, because he had no idea who I was. I was upset when I realized that it had always been a one-sided love, and when I returned home that day, I cried really hard into my pillow.
After that, I became a quiet and somewhat self-reserved girl, speaking only when I had to, doing only what I needed to do. Thankfully, we were in the same class for the last two years of middle school, although I was still too scared to attempt any contact with him. Eventually, it was time to apply to high schools. Of course, being the creepy stalker stealthy person I am, I found out the schools that he chose. I chose the same schools as well, and that's how we're in the same high school today.
I quickly look away, hiding the surprise on my face. My teacher, Moon Hee Ah, or Ms. Moon, tells us to follow her. All the students agree, and we head into the staircase. When she tells us that we have to go up to the fifth floor, everyone groans. By the time we're at the 4th floor, everybody is out of breath.
"We're almost there. Just oneeeee more flight of stairs, and we're done!" Ms. Moon enthusiastically assures us.
Nobody says anything, and we reach the fifth floor in silent victory. When we enter our assigned room, Ms. Moon tells us that we can sit wherever we want. I sit next to a seemingly nice girl, and Ms. Moon arranges for us to play some games that will help learn the names of everybody. However, nobody seems to remember anyone's name except for Kyuhyun's.
Ms. Moon smiles at him and says, "Wow, Kyuhyun! It seems like you're pretty popular here! Everybody knows your name!"
Kyuhyun blushes in embarrassment, and smiles back without saying anything. At this, I could practically hear the hearts of every girl in the room sigh, including my own.
With only about 20 minutes before lunch, Ms. Moon tells us we can have the rest of the time to do whatever we want. I decide to return to the table I was sitting at before, and the nice girl that I sat next to does the same.
The girl turns to me and introduces herself, "Hi there! I'm Hwang Mi Young, but you can call me Tiffany."
Tiffany? I wonder how she got that nickname. I awkwardly nod and reply, "I'm Lee Sungmin..."
Tiffany grins and pinches my cheeks. Catching me by surprise, I flinch. I've never seen a person act so close to a person they've just met.
"W-Why did you do that?" I ask, stuttering.
She smiles and responds, "Well, you seemed so tensed up and nervous, so I thought that pinching your cheeks would help loosen you up a bit!"
"Um... Thanks?"
"No problem! Do you have anybody to sit with at lunch?"
"Yeah..."
"Well, would you mind if I joined you?" Tiffany tries to pout, but she ends up making a funny face, and I laugh.
"So I guess that means... it's a yes?" Her eyes seem to sparkle with anticipation.
I hesitate, before agreeing with her. I give her the first genuine smile of today, and say, "Sure, why not?"
Then Ms. Moon tells us that we can go to lunch now, and I leave with Tiffany. Feeling a little optimistic, I earnestly wish that I won't be an outcast this year.
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A/N: Haii thar guyz~ (LOL) I'm back and I'm not empty-handed~ I'm back with a new fic~ :'D
Although I said I would post the next chapter of "Sleepless Nights" really fast, I didn't, cuz I got into a writer's block . ;____;
It sucks cuz I reached an "epiphany" (a word I forgot until the "Alexandra Wallace" thing), but I lost it halfway while writing it. D:
Well, anyways, I was inspired to write this fic due to the fact that I've always wanted to record my life somewhere. But since I'm a supar procrastinator, I never really got down to it.
Then one day, while I was in the bathroom (yes, bathroom xD), I suddenly got the motivation to write, and that's how it started.
I stopped writing for like, a week because of some projects at school, but I ultimately finished writing it today.
I finished today because I woke up late, pretended to go to school in front of my mom so she wouldn't yell at me, ditched school, and went to the library I am awesome. xD
For the title, I wanted to use "My School Years", but that's like, lame lol. Another title that I thought of was "Flutter", but that didn't seem to fit either. I got the current title from a line that will be in a later chapter of "Sleepless Nights" (I think xD).
Another reason why I decided to write this fic was because I know there are many fics where if Sungmin is a girl, she's like, some really beautiful girl or something, and Kyuhyun probably falls in love with her at first sight, etc. I'm not saying those fics are bad; no no nooooo, I enjoy those fics too~ ;D The romance in those fics always brightens up my day (if it was sad, depressing, etc). It's just that I wanted to do something different, something that hopefully, other people will be able to relate to and be like, "Oh! I went through the same/similiar thing! :'DDD" ... Is this fic even relatable to? O.O I dunno, but I know that I can relate to it because it's based on my life~ :'D
I hope I didn't offend anyone here. D: (If I did, I didn't mean to. ><;)
Anyways, since this is based on my life, there will be some parts that have actually happened, and some parts that are just part of my fantasy~ purely fictional. :'3
Maybe when I finish this entire story (I hope I finish O.O), I'll reveal the parts that are real, and the parts that are from my fantasy fictional. xD
Woot, what a supar long author's note! Sorry! 8'D
Well, I hope this fic will make for the lack of updates in "Sleepless Nights"! ><;
Oh, by the way, I almost forgot (xD), the education system stuff will be the same as the system stuff over where I live (which is New York owo), which means that Sungmin is in 9th grade. There are only 4 years in a high school over here: 9th (freshman), 10th (sophomore), 11th (junior), and 12th grade (senior). :]
I hope I haven't caused any confusion or hurt feelings D: SUPARRR sorries if I have. TT_TT
If you don't understand anything, or if you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask! :'D
OMG, I almost forgot again. xD Yes, this fic will have SNSD members in it. xD
And silent readers~ don't be afraid to comment~ I welcome all comments (as long as they're nice please ^w^) at any time~ :]
Thanks for reading!~ :'D ♥
( Chapter 2 )
Pairing(s): Kyuhyun x girl!Sungmin
Genre: Angst, Romance
Warning(s): swearing, epic failure
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 3,041
Summary: Sungmin has always felt alone; unfavored, unwanted, unloved. She has always felt out of place; family, school, even the public. She's never felt special before. She doesn''t look forward to anything in life. But this all changes when she sees him, Cho Kyuhyun; he makes her feel even worse. He's a popular, handsome boy. She's an average, plain-looking girl. How could he ever fall in love with her? Based on my life a true "story".
Checking over my reports one last time, I click the print button in the word processor and put a piece of paper in my printer. While waiting for it to print, I look up at my clock. 6:18 AM. About 2 hours to go before I have to leave for school.
Since it's the first day of school, classes don't start until 9:30, but I want to get there early so I can figure out where my friends are. It's always awkward whenever you step into a room and everyone's already there, in their own little social cliques, and they stare at you, like you're an outcast or something. It's a very unnerving feeling.
Still seated in my mini computer stool, I turn to my left and see my reflection in a giant mirror. I look at my hair. It seems to be getting a little too long now. It's reaching a few inches past my shoulder. Oh well, I suppose I'll get it cut later or something.
I go to check on my mom, and I find that she's sleeping on the sofa. I hope she's not too angry about how I stayed up all night.
Rule #1:
Never go to sleep on the night before school starts.
There's a big chance you could oversleep, and end up being late on the first day of school, which is when the awkwardness would commence.
I change out of my pajamas, and into a blue shirt and black jeans. I always wear black jeans. They draw attention away from my... not-so-skinny legs. I have to admit, I'm not as skinny as those other toothpick-thin Asian girls. I don't know why, but I blame it on my family genes.
I move the door that's blocking the only full-length mirror in the apartment. When I stand in front of it, my eyes automatically flicker to my cursed legs. I sigh and decide I look fine, walking back to the mirror next to my computer. As I look at my face, I wonder if I should put any make-up on. My mother tells me I should, since it's the start of a new year, which means I can have a fresh start. I choose to leave my face the way it is; it's too much of a hassle to put on make-up, or at least, to me it is.
I look at the clock again. 6:32 AM. I still have about an hour and a half before I need to go. Not knowing how to pass the time, I decide to "fret" over the way I look until it's time to go.
~
I leave the apartment, making sure to lock the door behind me. Then I go down the stairs and leave the entire building.
I take out a piece of paper that has the directions to school. I check it to make sure I'm on the right path. I don't want to get lost.
Rule #2:
If you're starting the school year at a new school, ALWAYS figure out how you're going to get there from home, BEFORE the school year actually starts.
If you get lost on your way to school, you're going to be late for school, and like in Rule #1, it's going to be really awkward when you get to school and have no idea where to go.
Ironically, I never figured out how I was going to get to school, so now I might be late. I visited the school last summer with my best friend, Sunkyu, but that doesn't really count. We had to get our pictures taken for our new identification cards for the school (we're both going to the same school this year).
When I get to the train station, I see that the train has just left. FML. This always seems to happen to me. Oh well. I swipe my card and push past the turnstile. While waiting for the next train to come, I re-check the directions to school. It says that I need to transfer to another train at a certain stop. Damn. I already suck at navigation, and now I need to transfer trains? I can tell that this is a sure sign that I'm probably going to be late for school.
The train that I'm waiting for arrives, and I see that there is a giant crowd inside. Great. Just great.
The doors open, and I try to squeeze inside. I suck in my breath, in hopes of taking up less space, and the doors close, shutting me off from the outside world.
~
When I finally get out of the train, I am relieved that I am safe and sound. I dislike taking the train because I'm scared that something bad will happen, like a crazy person harassing other people, or a bomb exploding, etc.
I read the signs around me, looking for the one that will lead me to the train I need to transfer to. No dice.
I decide to walk all the way to one end of the hallway, and I still don't see anything helpful. I start to go to the other side of the hallway, passing a few other students along the way. Like usual, they gawk at me and give me a look of disgust. Sigh.
When I reach the other side, I curse under my breath when I see that there's no sign there either. Shit, now I'm actually going to be late if I don't find the stairway that will lead me to the right train.
About 15 minutes later, I get tired of walking around the entire hallway and looking like an idiot, so I decide to ask somebody for directions.
The first person I ask, a young and somewhat pretty girl who is probably the same age as me, blows me off. I mean, she actually stopped and scoffed at me, IN MY FACE, before she strutted off, like a proud chicken. Really? Was that even necessary? Ugh, this is why I dislike pretty girls. It's not that I hate them because they're pretty; I hate them because they're usually really snobby when they're pretty. Most of the time, pretty = popular and pampered. I'm not saying that ALL pretty girls are stuck up, but a lot of them are. But then again, if I was a pretty girl (which I'm definitely not, hah), I bet I'd be the most arrogant one of all.
The next person I ask is a kind looking woman, and thank goodness, tells me the correct staircase to take. I thank her, and I ascend the flight of stairs.
On the way up, my phone starts to ring. I take it out of my jacket pocket to see who's calling. It's Sunkyu. That's weird. Why is she calling me now?
I answer the call, "Hello?"
"Sungmin!" a voice on the other line squeaks out. It's definitely Sunkyu.
"Yeah, it's me. What's wrong?" I ask.
"Where are you? There's like, half an hour before school actually starts!" she semi-whines.
"What?! HALF AN HOUR?!" I check the time on my phone, and I see that it's now 9:03. So I've wasted about a half an hour being lost?!
"I said 'half an hour', didn't I? And you better hurry up. The gym is really crowded now."
"Oh, alright. I'm almost there now. I'll be there before 9:30."
"Good. You better not be late!" And with that, she hangs up.
I put my phone back in my pocket, and I when I get to the top of the staircase, I let out a breath of relief when I find out that the train hasn't arrived yet. However, I see that there are a bunch of other teenagers waiting for the train as well. I try to walk past them without making any eye contact, but I can feel their eyes bore into my back, sending me death glares.
I survive the walk of despair, and luckily, the train appears. It slows down to an eventual stop, and the doors open. When I get on, I am happy that I am alone; that I am free from the people in the world for a few minutes.
~
I feel a pang of distress when I realize that I have to get off at the next stop. I suck it up, and I exit the train when it reaches my destination.
A hoard of students flock from the train towards the exit. In their busy attempts to get to school on time, they don't notice me, and thus, don't bother me.
I check the time on my phone. 9:10. There's about 20 minutes before school starts. I try to rush over to my school, or at least, where I think it is. Fortunately, I find the school in the nick of time, and with about 8 minutes left to spare.
Just as I enter the school, Sunkyu pops out of nowhere and tackles me, nearly sending me to the floor. Good thing she's smaller than me, or else I probably would've fallen.
"Where were you?! Why did you take so long to get here?!" she practically screams at me.
"Woah, woah. Calm down. I just got, um, a little lost on the way to school...?" I admit, feeling a bit embarrassed.
"You got lost?" she gives me a look of disbelief.
I try to give her a plausible excuse, "Well, you know me! I'm terrible with directions!"
She nods her head, as if she was completely agreeing with me. "Oh, my bad, I forgot."
"Hey! You're not supposed to agree with me!" I grin at her.
She laughs, "Hee hee~"
I playfully slap her arm, and we both laugh at each other. It's times like this that I appreciate that I have a good friend like Lee Sunkyu.
We met 2 years ago when we were in middle school. We were both in the same Honors class, and we sat next to each other every day in math class for the 2nd year we were together. At first, we were kind of distant, since I had been in Honors ever since I started middle school, and she had just recently transferred from the lowest academic class. However, eventually we bonded in class, and we became pretty good friends. She was pretty excited when she found out that we were going to the same high school.
Sunkyu drags me into the gym, and I gasp when I see the vast amount of people inside. Given, the gym is actually pretty small itself, but there are about 100+ people in the room.
I find some other classmates from middle school, and we sit down with them. Of course, the only thing we can talk about is our summer assignments, and like I anticipated, everybody did the assignment the night before school started. Being the biggest procrastinator known to mankind, I am the one who started and finished the latest.
Suddenly, the doors swing open, and a bunch of more students enter the room. Argh, now it's even more uncomfortable and crowded than before. Then this one girl enters the room, and she practically flings her arms around to get the attention of all the people in the room.
When everyone's finally looking at her, she introduces herself, "Hi everybody! My name's Seohyun!" and she waves her hand all around.
I don't think anybody has really paid any attention to her because nobody seems to care. She walks away in a huff, upset with the terrible response she received. When I turn back to my group of friends, Sunkyu gives me a confused look. For a moment, I fear it's about me, but then I realize that it's about Seohyun.
Sunkyu stays quiet for a few minutes, before writing off Seohyun as a weirdo in her mind.
Then this woman loudly yells "Excuse me!" to get our attention. The room turns silent, and the woman announces that for the first three periods, we will spend time with our "advisories", before going to lunch.
In this high school, they implement the use of advisories, which are classes that we stay with for the entire high school experience. Every year, our classes change, and we will meet new people, but advisory is the only class in which the people stay the same. I'm not exactly sure what the use of advisory is for, but apparently it's a pass/fail class that supposedly deviates from academics. So it's probably a class where we don't have to worry about grades, and that we're supposed to focus on bonding with each other or something. Pfft. As if. I bet I'm going to be an outcast again.
A bunch of teachers gather together, and one by one, they call out the students that are in their advisory. Sunkyu frowns when her name gets called and she has to depart from me. However, when my name doesn't get called for a long time, I start to worry. Eventually, there's just one teacher left, and I hope that I'm in her advisory. Fortunately enough, she calls my name, and I run over to her, practically wanting to give her a big hug. But when I see the students that are going to be in my advisory, I freeze. It's him. Cho Kyuhyun. The guy I've practically longed for my whole life. No, really, I mean it. My whole life.
We met when we were both 4 years old. Since my mother is religious, when I was a young girl, she would drag me over to her bible study group every week. At first, I dreaded going because it was just sooo boring and I kept falling asleep. But then Kyuhyun came along, and after that, I was the one who rushed my mother along to the study group. As a little girl, I was not very knowledge about things, so I was often bold and outspoken; someone who did whatever she wanted to do. This resulted in me chasing after Kyuhyun and trying to be next to him all the time. No doubt, this annoyed him to great lengths, and he started to flee whenever he saw me. Sure, it broke my small and fragile heart whenever he fled, but it also made me even more determined to be by his side.
Eventually, my mother had to leave the bible study group due to private family matters, and I was devastated when I found out I would never see Kyuhyun again. Luckily, after moping around about his absence in all of elementary school, we met again 5 years later, in middle school. Even though many years had gone by, he was still the only one in my heart. Sadly enough, I found out that I didn't leave any impression on him whatsoever, because he had no idea who I was. I was upset when I realized that it had always been a one-sided love, and when I returned home that day, I cried really hard into my pillow.
After that, I became a quiet and somewhat self-reserved girl, speaking only when I had to, doing only what I needed to do. Thankfully, we were in the same class for the last two years of middle school, although I was still too scared to attempt any contact with him. Eventually, it was time to apply to high schools. Of course, being the creepy stalker stealthy person I am, I found out the schools that he chose. I chose the same schools as well, and that's how we're in the same high school today.
I quickly look away, hiding the surprise on my face. My teacher, Moon Hee Ah, or Ms. Moon, tells us to follow her. All the students agree, and we head into the staircase. When she tells us that we have to go up to the fifth floor, everyone groans. By the time we're at the 4th floor, everybody is out of breath.
"We're almost there. Just oneeeee more flight of stairs, and we're done!" Ms. Moon enthusiastically assures us.
Nobody says anything, and we reach the fifth floor in silent victory. When we enter our assigned room, Ms. Moon tells us that we can sit wherever we want. I sit next to a seemingly nice girl, and Ms. Moon arranges for us to play some games that will help learn the names of everybody. However, nobody seems to remember anyone's name except for Kyuhyun's.
Ms. Moon smiles at him and says, "Wow, Kyuhyun! It seems like you're pretty popular here! Everybody knows your name!"
Kyuhyun blushes in embarrassment, and smiles back without saying anything. At this, I could practically hear the hearts of every girl in the room sigh, including my own.
With only about 20 minutes before lunch, Ms. Moon tells us we can have the rest of the time to do whatever we want. I decide to return to the table I was sitting at before, and the nice girl that I sat next to does the same.
The girl turns to me and introduces herself, "Hi there! I'm Hwang Mi Young, but you can call me Tiffany."
Tiffany? I wonder how she got that nickname. I awkwardly nod and reply, "I'm Lee Sungmin..."
Tiffany grins and pinches my cheeks. Catching me by surprise, I flinch. I've never seen a person act so close to a person they've just met.
"W-Why did you do that?" I ask, stuttering.
She smiles and responds, "Well, you seemed so tensed up and nervous, so I thought that pinching your cheeks would help loosen you up a bit!"
"Um... Thanks?"
"No problem! Do you have anybody to sit with at lunch?"
"Yeah..."
"Well, would you mind if I joined you?" Tiffany tries to pout, but she ends up making a funny face, and I laugh.
"So I guess that means... it's a yes?" Her eyes seem to sparkle with anticipation.
I hesitate, before agreeing with her. I give her the first genuine smile of today, and say, "Sure, why not?"
Then Ms. Moon tells us that we can go to lunch now, and I leave with Tiffany. Feeling a little optimistic, I earnestly wish that I won't be an outcast this year.
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A/N: Haii thar guyz~ (LOL) I'm back and I'm not empty-handed~ I'm back with a new fic~ :'D
Although I said I would post the next chapter of "Sleepless Nights" really fast, I didn't, cuz I got into a writer's block . ;____;
It sucks cuz I reached an "epiphany" (a word I forgot until the "Alexandra Wallace" thing), but I lost it halfway while writing it. D:
Well, anyways, I was inspired to write this fic due to the fact that I've always wanted to record my life somewhere. But since I'm a supar procrastinator, I never really got down to it.
Then one day, while I was in the bathroom (yes, bathroom xD), I suddenly got the motivation to write, and that's how it started.
I stopped writing for like, a week because of some projects at school, but I ultimately finished writing it today.
I finished today because I woke up late, pretended to go to school in front of my mom so she wouldn't yell at me, ditched school, and went to the library I am awesome. xD
For the title, I wanted to use "My School Years", but that's like, lame lol. Another title that I thought of was "Flutter", but that didn't seem to fit either. I got the current title from a line that will be in a later chapter of "Sleepless Nights" (I think xD).
Another reason why I decided to write this fic was because I know there are many fics where if Sungmin is a girl, she's like, some really beautiful girl or something, and Kyuhyun probably falls in love with her at first sight, etc. I'm not saying those fics are bad; no no nooooo, I enjoy those fics too~ ;D The romance in those fics always brightens up my day (if it was sad, depressing, etc). It's just that I wanted to do something different, something that hopefully, other people will be able to relate to and be like, "Oh! I went through the same/similiar thing! :'DDD" ... Is this fic even relatable to? O.O I dunno, but I know that I can relate to it because it's based on my life~ :'D
I hope I didn't offend anyone here. D: (If I did, I didn't mean to. ><;)
Anyways, since this is based on my life, there will be some parts that have actually happened, and some parts that are just part of my fantasy~ purely fictional. :'3
Maybe when I finish this entire story (I hope I finish O.O), I'll reveal the parts that are real, and the parts that are from my fantasy fictional. xD
Woot, what a supar long author's note! Sorry! 8'D
Well, I hope this fic will make for the lack of updates in "Sleepless Nights"! ><;
Oh, by the way, I almost forgot (xD), the education system stuff will be the same as the system stuff over where I live (which is New York owo), which means that Sungmin is in 9th grade. There are only 4 years in a high school over here: 9th (freshman), 10th (sophomore), 11th (junior), and 12th grade (senior). :]
I hope I haven't caused any confusion or hurt feelings D: SUPARRR sorries if I have. TT_TT
If you don't understand anything, or if you have any questions, don't be afraid to ask! :'D
OMG, I almost forgot again. xD Yes, this fic will have SNSD members in it. xD
And silent readers~ don't be afraid to comment~ I welcome all comments (as long as they're nice please ^w^) at any time~ :]
Thanks for reading!~ :'D ♥
( Chapter 2 )