Why Cant I sleep Anymore?!?!!?!
Yeah So I got up this morning at like 6:30 and i didnt get to bed until like 5 am anyways. yepp lifes really sucking these past 2 weeks now and its only getting harder and harder as time moves on...Ive lost the 2 best friends I had in less than a month and all I have to show for it is wiped away by the sleeve of my shirt about every 10 minutes of everyday. I cant handle this anymore Im completely in love with a girl that doesnt love me anymore or just doesnt care because i cant make her feel special =/ well all I know is shes real good at making me feel like something lower than dirt lately and all I still want is her...for some reason she always tells me how theres other girls out there and blah blah and they can treat me so much better than she could but its just her way to make herself feel better about everything she did cause she knows how bad im hurt and that ill never let go and she didnt even wait a week for us to be done til she started doing someone else. Well all I know past that is that I want her back no one is ever gonna be her and no one will ever be like her and nothing is ever going to be the same again and now im just rambling because im really tired but cant sleep ever anymore or somethng. I just wish there was something I could do because I know if I got my shot this time things would never go this wrong again I know how much I love her and in all honesty when I told her that we would never stay together long enough to get married and she thought we would I really believed that we would I just didnt want to jynx things and it looks liek I didnt have to worry about that cause I ruined em instead...