Aug 20, 2005 12:10
Yeah so lately hmm well last nite wasnt that bad till the end i guess.....went to a bonfire and well lets just some it all up by sayin there was no AL whats so ever =( well after that I went and got some ice cream hung out for a bit and on the way home got a call from Hyatt and Lebaron so I went and picked them up and they were with Tubby so I had them 3 in my car and still had to take whalen and yoesting over to kevins house so i ended up with 6 people in a 5 person car...lets jsut say whalen had his head in someones lap the whole way wherever we went....that F*ing queer lol jp man. umm after that i got to come home to a practically empty house it kinda made me reflect on my life as being practically empty as well but then i seen that everyone was partyin on the back porch so i guess my life is about to open back up? maybe? well whatever the case is i finally got the computer back but its hardly worth it seeings how i had to clean out my room first and I cant even get on AIM right now. Found all my notes from chelsea that someone tried throwing away and it was nice readin them seeings how her and i never fought about anything it kinda just gave me that good feeling until i found all the other notes from ang from the very first time we broke up like the ones where she doesnt give a shit about me until shes without and im not. IDK lately it seems like the more and more i try not to think about anything and just live for the randomness the more and more that i do think about everythign and learn why things happen the way they do but oh well it doesnt really matter anymore cause well im sick of puttin effort into life when life doesnt wanna put any effort back so well im out.